Trudy Gamp is as subtle of a nesting dragon (![]() ![]() @ 2013-01-13 19:27:00 |
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Entry tags: | ! [1943-01] january, gertrude gamp, graeme mckinnon |
Who: Gertrude Gamp & Graeme McKinnon
When: Sunday
Where: Hogwarts grounds
What: Apologies, maybe.
Status: Complete Log.
Things had been quiet lately, in the sense that she just had not seen much of her Gryffindor friends. She didn’t mind spending so much time with her other friends, or even alone. Trudy had used the time to think about transfiguration and had spent some time thinking about things. Both sides, and she could see a point of either. But admittedly she was a little annoyed with her friends and how they reacted to her defending her cousin. Over all though it was stupid not to be talking to your friends, even if your cousin disapproved. Trudy missed Graeme though, and things had just got awkward with everything since that stupid kiss. Okay it wasn’t stupid but still, it just seemed to mess everything up. Trudy was outside thinking, and attempting to run through ideas for her essays. She should have rethought it considering how cold it was out. Trudy watched her feet as she was walking, not really aware of whether people were around. Graeme also missed Trudy, but being an immature fifteen year old boy, really had no idea how to fix things. Well, he had a bit of an idea, but for some reason, he'd been putting it off because apologies were often far too uncomfortable for him. He knew he'd said some things he probably shouldn't have, but he wasn't the only one at fault. He was walking outside, too, to get some fresh air and so of course, managed to find himself face to face with the very person he'd been avoiding. "Trudy. Hi," he said, more out of surprise than anything else. There was surprise on her face as she looked up and saw the one person she had been avoid. “Hi,” she wasn’t sure what else to say other than that. Things had been said between them, and she faulted both of them. She knew she should not let Aloysius get into her head as much as he did, but then she felt like people should understand. Everything seemed weird though just standing in front of Graeme not sure what to say. “How are you?” Trudy asked, feeling far more awkward for saying anything. She really didn’t know what was better than staring at him silently, or saying what she had. Trudy rocked back and forth from her toes to her heels, unsure what to do. Graeme shrugged. "I'm fine. You?" He wasn't actually particularly fine, but it was so much easier to just say it. It seemed to weird to be forward and just say, "I miss you." Or even, "I'm sorry." It was something that needed to be eased into, though Graeme wasn't exactly sure how. But now, here they were, having talking more than they had in well over a week and he found that didn't particularly want to stop talking to her now. However, he waited for her to say something. “I’ve been better.” No point in lying. If they wanted to sort things out, which she did, then they had to be honest about a few things. “Thanks for posting that list by the way,” she said coldly. Okay probably not the best way to start things being so snippy at him. But it stung and she wanted him to know that much at least, if that was all they managed to accomplish. Trudy didn’t want to leave though, so that was something right? "Oh…." Graeme did feel a little bad about, at least when it came to Trudy. He hadn't really considered her feelings (or many else) when he'd posted it. Then again, the girls hadn't really done any of the boys that favour, either. But he was making an effort to be nice, so he may as well tell the truth, which seemed nice enough to him. "You were tops on my list." “Really?” Trudy wasn’t so sure she believed that, but it was nice of him to say. “You were on mine too.” She offered up quietly and not while looking at him, heavens no, she would blush then. “I guess we didn’t really think about your feelings then either.” Will had said something about that, and it was definitely a lesson learned. Ranking people was not fun when you were on the receiving end. At least they were talking though right? This was progress. Graeme couldn't help smiling a little at Trudy's confession. "No I guess not. Everyone said it was just a bit of fun, but it wasn't really, was it? I guess that's why I decided to do the other list but not many of the lads wanted to do it. Smart of them, really." Not that Graeme regretted doing it, but it was just too bad lists had even occurred in the first place. “Yes probably smart of them,” but the girls had started it hadn’t they. Well, one in particular but if they had not all answered she would have had nothing to post. “Sorry,” she said looking at him fully when she talked to him for the first time since their conversation started. “I know I have been distant for a while.” Trudy really didn’t know how to approach how she felt about the whole thing. Looking sharply up at her, Graeme found that surprising. He really hadn't expected Trudy to apologise to him, although he was grateful for it. "I'm sorry too," he said after a pause. "I just thought… maybe you'd started listening to your cousin more and didn't want anything to do with me. But I should have been nicer about everything." If she really didn't want anything to do with him, well, she wouldn't be talking to him now, would she? He hoped not. “I had,” she paused, “Sort of.” Trudy felt horrid for saying it. “I just thought I needed to take a step back and clear my head, because I was frustrated with everyone. But Aloysius isn’t going to be happy no matter what, or it doesn’t seem like it. So why ruin prefectly good friends to make him happy?” Trudy loved her cousin, but she had to live her own life as well. “I can have my friends in Gryffindor and in Slytherin, I think it is possible. And if they don’t like me for it then do they really like me?” Trudy figured that could go both ways. “And I will continue to defend my cousin, but I will defend my friends as well. I am just going to find away to balance it all.” She liked Graeme and Sebastian, and Olwen too much to walk away. "Oh," Graeme said, not sure what else to say. He was pretty sure he felt something in his stomach drop to his feet upon hearing his suspicions confirmed. Unlike her, he despised meddlesome Aloysius Nott for this. But he wouldn't let her know this time. It wasn't worth it. "Okay. You're right." He would just have to deal with these things if he wanted to be Trudy's friend, he realised. She was worth it. "I'm glad you still want to be friends. I'd miss you if you didn't." Trudy felt awful. While she knew she needed to say these things, she simply wished there was a nicer way to say it. Or even better that she didn’t have to say it at all. Trudy took a step closer to him and reached to take his hand. “I missed you as it was. Of course I still want to be friends.” Trudy held back from saying anything more about how she felt about him. She didn’t really want to go embarrassing herself. Of course, Graeme was happy to hear that. He squeezed her hand and grinned, though resisted the urge to give her another kiss. It wasn't that he thought kissing was what caused their problems before because he was pretty sure it was Trudy's cousin, not a simple kiss. No, it was more that he wasn't sure if that's what she wanted and it was nice enough just to hold her hand. "Good," he said and gave her a grin. Trudy smiled, a proper smile. It seemed like ages since one was seen on her face. She didn’t even care if Aloysius popped out of a bush and saw them holding hands. Right now she was happy things were on track, and getting back to normal. “Want to go for a walk?” She asked, since it seemed like ages since spending any time with Graeme. She adjusted her hand in his. She didn’t want to let his hand go. Graeme smiled again. Now he felt happier than he could remember in the past week or so. It was definitely nice to have his friend back. "A walk together would be nice," he said and meant it. Perhaps nice was even an understatement. |