Everything was happening all at once, and Susan wasn't sure what to do. She was just about to ask Hannah what she thought she was doing when she said goodbye, instantly bring tears to her eyes. There was hardly a moment to dwell on it, though, because Hannah was kissing her. She was aware of what was going on, but she felt as if she weren't really there, that she was watching something that couldn't be stopped. She was helpless, a feeling she resented and felt often.
Susan didn't need to follow her friend to know what was going to happen next. She saw her walk away and move into the ballroom once more, but she made no move to stop her. There was no way she could stop Hannah. She knew that she would do what she wanted. Susan leaned against the railing, closing her eyes and just trying to slow down the thoughts racing through her mind, to try and piece together everything that was going on, though it was no use. She cried instead.