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-- They're going to continue being the best because we do have a say over it. -- [...] I don't know if I really know everything that I'm feeling right now. Part of it is just that I'm honestly so damn happy for her because I know she's close to her family and her best friend is here, so I always hated that my shitty choices made her feel like she needed to leave that behind. So I'm happy that she's home and close to the people she loves, and that she's got a job I know she cares about. -- And then I'm frustrated that I can't even tell her any of that, despite the fact that we were friends before we were more than that, and pissed at myself because it's just one more thing that was my fault. -- But I'm also kind of worried about what her being here will mean for both you and me, and us, and angry that I even have to worry about that because you never should have been put in the middle of this in the first place. -- Honestly, it's all a hot mess in my brain right now. -- But more than anything, I feel tremendous gratitude that I have you in my life, that you're willing to hear all of this. And I feel overwhelming love and affection for you, in general.