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lennox archer 🏹 legolas greenleaf (ofmirkwood) wrote in dunhavenic,
@ 2017-10-10 20:36:00

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!text, c: lyllianna stone, r * jaclyn, r: lennox archer

texts;; 2017 10 10; late afternoon/early evening
[after this, before this]

~~Texts to Nina~~

» Nina

» I

» Can we talk?

» I need your advi

» I think I

Texts to Lyllianna

» I did something
» Probably something stupid

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	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 01:55 am UTC (link)
	» ... » Is that supposed to surprise me? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 01:57 am UTC (link)
	» Lyl, this is serious... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 01:59 am UTC (link)
	» I'm listening. » And I'll attempt to be the least sassy version of myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 02:01 am UTC (link)
	» I slept with Aleida » She's a vir » She was a virgin » I was » She » FUCK » It was her first time » I learned this after (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 02:04 am UTC (link)
	~~» Fuck~~ » Pretty much everyone has a first time eventually. » Did she seem to be...generally ok with everything? » How are you feeling about it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 02:07 am UTC (link)
	» Yeah she was fine. Afraid I'd be mad at first and made sure to tell me she's on the pill which was a relief because I was stupid there, too » But I promised I wasn't mad and she seemed happy » I think » I'm not very good at gauging that » I've never taken anyone's virginity before » I'm not sure how I feel » I feel like I've completely fucked up, Lyl (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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catalyzed
2017-10-12 02:32 am UTC (link)

» You didn't use protection?
» I say as long as she didn't grab up her clothes and storm out, you shouldn't worry on that front.
» It can be complicated for girls.
» Our virginities are treated like measures of our worth, but as long as she doesn't get hung up on that, she'll be ok.

» Why?
» Unless...you're having second thoughts and want to cut ties with her.

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ofmirkwood
2017-10-12 02:40 am UTC (link)

» We sort of [...] got caught up in the moment
» I feel like a stupid teenager, not a man in his mid-30s

» That's stupid
» For you, I mean
» Society is screwed up

» I don't know what I'm having
» I wanted her and we really connected and then it happened and now I want to run
» Admitting that to you is rather hard and I know how much of an asshole it makes me sound like so you don't have to say it

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catalyzed
2017-10-12 02:51 am UTC (link)

» You're not infallible, but for apparently not having talked about much of anything before it all happened, I can't say that wasn't a huge risk.

»It is stupid.
» Society usually is.

~~» An early mid-life crisis.~~
» At least you acknowledged that it makes you sound like an asshole.
» Why the sudden remorse?
» You obviously liked her enough before you slept with her.
» I'm telling you right now that if you break things off with her, you owe her one hell of an explanation, so you might as well try to figure it out now.

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	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 02:56 am UTC (link)
	» Yes, I know... » Right » "Dear Alee, I had a wonderful time taking your virginity, but unfortunately I've been in love with the same girl since I was 8 and the idea that I've started to fall for someone else is scary so I'm going to just be on my way now, thanks." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 03:01 am UTC (link)
	» Fuck, Lennox. » You didn't think that you being in love with someone else was important to declare before now? » [...] » But you've started to fall for Alee? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 03:04 am UTC (link)
	» Of course I have » It wouldn't be messing with me this much if I hadn't » Casual sex would be easy » And it doesn't matter » She's involved with Mr. Stick-Up-His-Ass Philanthropic British Doctor, so I'm fairly certain my chances have gone from zero to somewhere in the negative numbers (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 03:09 am UTC (link)
	» Casual sex is still complicated, even if people like to say it isn't. » I've rarely ever met anyone who can go completely without strings for very long, unless something else is holding them back. » It's Nina. » I'm such an idiot for not seeing that coming. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 03:16 am UTC (link)
	» Well, now you know my something-holding-them-back... » Because I'm particularly good at going without strings (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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catalyzed
2017-10-12 03:27 am UTC (link)

» Then you have some choices to make.
» Because you can keep pining after a woman who is involved with someone else and may not ever reciprocate...
» Or you can see what happens with Alee.
» You can't do both, Lennox.
» Not with her.
» As someone who has been second choice, it's a shitty place to be, and you've seen what the rumor mill in this town is like. Eventually, most secrets find their way to the surface.

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	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 03:29 am UTC (link)
	[...] » I'm going to hurt her, aren't I? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 03:31 am UTC (link)
	» Brutal honesty? » Undoubtedly. » If I'd known, I never would have pushed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 03:37 am UTC (link)
	» How do I just let it go, Lyllia? » I don't want to hurt Alee [...] » I don't want to end it either (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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catalyzed
2017-10-12 03:49 am UTC (link)

» I can tell you for certain that you're going to hurt her worse if you hang onto her while hoping for Nina.
» Because if you are willing to just drop her for someone else, you don't need to be with her and she doesn't need to be with you.
» I can say this, because I was the other woman in an affair and I don't recommend it to anyone.
» Has Nina ever given you any indication that she might feel the same way towards you?
» I know that's a difficult question, but it's one you need to consider.
» Because you could throw everything away for something that may never happen.
» Or you can take a risk and try something new, but that starts with divorcing yourself from the idea that Nina is the only woman worth your undivided attention. Whatever pedestal you've had her on since you were eight would need to be knocked down.

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	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 03:53 am UTC (link)
	[several minutes later] » It's irritating when you're right » You do know that, don't you? » Why is it so terrifying to imagine letting ~~anyone~~ Alee close? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 04:07 am UTC (link)
	» I know. » I'm just very wise. » Because it would be something real. » You're accustomed to keeping everyone at a distance. » It being real means you're accountable, and there is someone that turns to you and relies on you. » But it means someone is always there to have your back too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 04:10 am UTC (link)
	» This is why my closest friends consist of a dog, a horse, a married woman, and Nina » It's easier (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 04:13 am UTC (link)
	» The easy route isn't always the best one, and it's often the least rewarding. » I'm just full of good advice tonight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 04:16 am UTC (link)
	» I might demote you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 04:20 am UTC (link)
	» You wouldn't have come to me asking for help if you didn't want to hear what I had to say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 04:23 am UTC (link)
	» Maybe I'm a masochist » You know, if nothing else, there is one undeniable silver lining to all this (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 04:29 am UTC (link)
	» I don't know that I would go that far. » Enlighten me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 04:30 am UTC (link)
	» My father would absolutely hate her (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-12 04:34 am UTC (link)
	» From what little I know about him, that sounds accurate. » Just...promise me you'll think about what I said? » Don't make any rash decisions out of fear or habit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; ofmirkwood 2017-10-12 04:58 am UTC (link)
	» I promise [...] » I [...] want to give this a shot (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	RETURN TEXT; catalyzed 2017-10-13 02:42 am UTC (link)
	» Just do it right. » Take your foot out of that other doorway. (Reply to this) (Parent)