InsaneJournal

evan meadows 🗡️ inej ghafa (thewraith) wrote in dunhavenic, @ 2019-03-02 18:29:00

Hey, Sorcha. I know that you probably don't especially want to hear from me and I both understand and respect that, so I would also understand and respect if you were to decide to ignore this entirely. Still, I wanted to reach out nonetheless. I know that this is probably something best left said in person as I don't want my words or intentions to come across as potentially disingenuous, but I also didn't know if you would want to see me. That's a lot of preamble, I realize.

Basically, I wanted to apologize for how I've treated you the past four years. I'll admit that my gut reaction is to make excuses for my behavior, but I won't. I've recently begun to understand a lot more about myself and though my intentions were never to hurt you, I know that it doesn't change the fact that I could have and for that I'm truly sorry. Though I'm unable to apologize for my friendship with Cash and I may not have fully understood a lot of my emotions where he was concerned during that time, I can see now with hindsight that there are things that I might have said or done that could have made you uncomfortable. I hope you believe me when I say just how much I regret not having been more respectful of you and your feelings.

I don't expect a response to this or any sort of absolution or even forgiveness on your part. If this was uncalled for or unwanted, I apologize again. I know that we were never super close, but I still considered you to be a friend.

[...] Anyway, that's all. I hope you're doing well.

I needed a break from so much homework, so I went ahead and did a little more digging for Spring Break, because it seems like the most acceptable distraction from school. Given the timing, I thought that it might be good to get things sorted out sooner rather than later when it comes to booking so. I found this house that I think would suit our needs nicely, both in size and location. For the dates I mentioned before (March 24-March 28), it would be a total of $60 for each person. I'm happy to throw more money in, if someone needs it, since this was my scheme in the first place.

Outside of that, we'd need two people to drive so we can get there in the first place. I would volunteer, but I barely trust my car to get me from one side of Dunhaven to the other, so we might want to skip that. Given the full kitchen and all that, we can probably try to not burn the place down a few times, but we can probably do a grocery run there. I'm taking my waffle maker, though. Seems kind of illegal for them to not have one, but I'll let it slide. Also, you can fight among yourselves which two of you is stuck on the sofa bed.

If that works for you guys, just let me know and I'll get everything booked for us. I'm pretty excited and am glad you guys were as into this as I was.