She was going to let him shoot her, Bea. At least, that's what it seemed like. I don't know exactly what she was thinking, but she had the gun and instead of shooting him, she put it in his hand and let him press it to her head. It was more than just bruises, or it could have been. I think that's what has me so turned inside out. His finger was on the trigger, and if one single moment had been different, he might have pulled it.