It's not fun, is it? I had the memory months ago, but it still swings around and catches me off guard sometimes. It has gotten better with time, but it's still there, burrowed away to pop up at inconvenient times. I haven't ever suffered a loss like that in my actual life, but I imagine that's what it would be like if I had. [...] I know lots of other people have said it, but I'm sorry that you're going through it, too.