I love you too, Max. You've got all of us. It makes the trials easier to bear, having chosen family surrounding us. I don't know what I'd have done without Kiera and Niall and now you and everyone you've brought into my life. I get it, though. Even if you don't want to care, it's hard to stop yourself.
I understand why you want to go there first thing in the morning, and hopefully she'll be understanding about why it's taken time for you to process. I know she loves you, and I'm sure that all of this is turning her world up on end, too.