Liam has gained (perspective) wrote in doorslogs, @ 2014-02-04 20:45:00 |
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Entry tags: | scarecrow |
Who: Ashleigh Donovan
What: A phone call
Where: Her room at the Bellagio
When: Recent
Warnings/Rating: None
Ashleigh stared down at the phone in her hands, the words of the doctor still ringing in her ears. It felt like a nightmare, or maybe some sort of surreal dream, one that she wanted to wake from before anything got worse than it already was. But she had pinched herself a dozen times, had the bruises to prove it, and yet she didn't wake up.
She was still pregnant.
If anyone had asked her about it weeks before, she would have laughed it off and said she could deal with anything that was tossed her way, a child included, but now that it was reality, all she wanted to do was throw up. She wasn't ready to have a kid, didn't know if she would ever be ready, but here she was, with a little human growing inside of her. One hand pressed against her stomach, disbelief filling her as she squeezed her eyes shut and wondered what she had done to deserve this. It wasn't that she didn't care for Alexander - because she did - but with the way their respective families were, with all the strife between them, she couldn't see how this would ever go well. Her brothers were already upset with her as it was, and this… She didn't even want to imagine what they would say.
Numbness spread through her as she looked back down to her phone again, and then, with shaking hands, she sent a message to Alexander. No, it wasn't the way she should have done it, but she wasn't sure she could say the words right then. There would be tears, they wouldn't come out, and then it would just be even more of a mess. Her fingers didn't stutter and her fingers didn't leak tears, so the message came through crystal clear.
The test came back. I'm pregnant.
And then, Ashleigh let the phone fall to the floor between her legs as she leaned back against the side of the bed, and tried to figure out what she was going to do.