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🎵 𝄞 🎸 𝄫 🎷🎶 🎻 (jukejoint) wrote in doors,
@ 2014-03-28 00:22:00

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In person - UMC: Neil/Sam
[She didn't waste any time getting to Neil's room after rushing out of the car and leaving shoeless-Daniel and bleeding-Lin behind. And maybe she should have been worried about them, yeah? But she was coming down hard, and she was jittery in a way that only happened after a multi-day binge. She tried to smooth the wrinkled fabric of a shirt that was too tight, and she tried to tug up the jeans that were too loose. There was no way the clothing she was wearing belonged to her, and there wasn't shit she could do about it. She crossed her arms, unintentionally hiding marks, and her blonde hair was mess and tangles as she barged into Neil's room without knocking or whatever. She smelled of booze and smoke, even from the doorway, and her eyes were red-rimmed and blood shot.]

Hey.

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in person - UMC: neil/sam

incharge
2014-03-28 05:11 am UTC (link)

[The nurses were big on staying calm, which Neil admittedly hadn't managed very well since he'd woken up raving about Chloe and how he wanted her arrested. But he was being a good boy now. For the most part, at least. He'd been warned after hanging up with Sam that added stress in his condition was a risk and, well, he got the message.

As promised, he wasn't moving. The machines beeped quietly and he was still hooked up to all those lovely IVs, and okay, maybe he didn't look the best. Tired and pale, not his usual self, but at least he wasn't on death's doorstep. The suddenness of Sam's arrival surprised him, and his head jerked up in surprise; nobody just barged into his room like that.

After a few seconds and a lingering once-over that made him frown, he managed a weak smile.] Hey. See? I'm not dying.

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Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

jukejoint
2014-03-28 05:16 am UTC (link)

[She stared for like five seconds or something, back against the door, but standing still wasn't exactly easy just then, and she moved toward the center of the room with unsteady quickness. Trip, and she caught herself on the edge of his bed and clambered onto it with hands that just wouldn't stop fucking shaking. Close up, the track marks and bruises that lined her arms were glaringly obvious and, yeah, the smell of booze and smoke and bodies was thick on the borrowed clothing.]

Hey. [Stare, and she tucked one of her legs under her ass.] You swear? [She reached a shaky hand for the blanket.] Where did she get you?

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Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

incharge
2014-03-28 05:22 am UTC (link)

[The morphine made things a little funny, but it didn't make him blind. Neil could still see. He watched her move towards the bed, watched her trip and catch herself before climbing onto the bed. Maybe he should've been worried about himself, but funny thing, he wasn't. Not that he wanted to die or anything but he was alive, right? He'd be fine.

He saw the marks on her arms, and even if he could convince himself that she'd gotten her clothes from Shane or Lin or somebody, being stabbed didn't rob him of his sense of smell either.] I swear. [He paused.] It doesn't matter, Sam. I'm fine. What the hell happened to you?

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	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam jukejoint 2014-03-28 05:24 am UTC (link)
	[She shook her head too quickly, but all of her movements were jerky just then, yeah? And fuck if she could control it.] I want to see. [She tugged at the blanket.] I need to see, yeah? Just let me, ok? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-28 05:26 am UTC (link)
	No, Sam, you don't need to see. There's gauze and shit anyway. [He tugged back on the blanket when she did, and then, changing his mind, reached for her hand instead.] Sam. Talk to me. I'm not that loopy on painkillers, okay? I can fucking see you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

jukejoint
2014-03-28 05:33 am UTC (link)

[She didn't let go when he tugged back, and she probably would have torn the shit out of the blanket if he hadn't changed his mind and reached for her hand. The touch made her jerk back her fingers, and she looked up at him with inky blue eyes that were brimming with guilt.

She stayed on the bed for precisely two seconds more, and then she was on her feet and pacing unsteadily. Jesus, she wanted a fucking fix. She wanted a fucking fix.]

[A whisper.] I fucked up.

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	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-28 05:45 am UTC (link)
	[He tried, for what it was worth, to keep her on the bed, but his mobility was shit and he just wasn't strong enough. All he could really do was watch, watch her pace, but her whisper had him struggling into a sitting position.[ What? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam jukejoint 2014-03-28 05:47 am UTC (link)
	[Louder.] I fucked up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-28 05:59 am UTC (link)
	[He stared. The pieces were there and they fit whether he liked it or not, but he tried. He tried to stay calm. He tried to figure out what to say. When he finally did manage words, they felt thick and clumsy on his tongue.] When? What-- Is that where you were? Did Shane fucking know? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

jukejoint
2014-03-28 06:14 am UTC (link)

[There was something about the way he sounded that freaked her out, made her panic, and she climbed onto the bed again, knees and her hands on either sides of his thighs. It was precarious, shaking fingers against the sheets and her knees threatening to give out.] I freaked, ok? I freaked the fuck out. After Chloe- After she said that Alex would move in across the street or whatever, I remembered- That day I was shot, I fucking remembered it, and I freaked. Ok? I'm sorry. Don't be pissed? Please don't be fucking pissed. And don't be pissed at Shane. I asked him to cover. I called him like the first day or whatever, and I asked him to cover.

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Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

incharge
2014-03-28 09:41 pm UTC (link)

[Neil tried to remind himself to breathe, but it was really fucking hard just then. He reached out, tried to still her fingers himself, but every movement sent stabbing pains through his abdomen and it wasn't easy to hide it.] Why didn't you say anything? Shane told me you didn't feel safe. He said you were crashing with him. [Oh, yeah, he's pissed.] I'm not pissed at you. I'm pissed at him. What, he covered for you and just left you wherever the hell you were? He should've helped you, Sam! [As his voice rose, the beeping became quicker, closer together, but he ignored it.]

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Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

jukejoint
2014-03-28 09:54 pm UTC (link)

[She covered his mouth with her shaking fingers, because he needed to shut up, yeah?] Stop. I swear to god, if you don't calm the fuck down I'm going to bail. I will. I'm not going to stay here if it's going to make you beep and die on me, ok? So, stop. Ok? Stop. And I didn't tell Shane where I was, I don't think. I don't fucking remember, ok? All I know is I didn't want you to know. [She rocked back onto her heels, and her hands slid away from his face.] I just didn't want you to know, and I was going to go home. I swear, I was going to fucking going home, but- [She rocked.] I fucked up. I just- I couldn't fucking deal. He just covered because I asked or whatever.

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	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-29 04:33 am UTC (link)
	[Somehow, with great difficulty, he managed to stay quiet. He swallowed down everything he wanted to say and nodded instead, at least until she slid her hands away.] I'm not going to die. Ignore the beeping. [But, to give him his due, he did try to calm down.] You need to be with someone, Sam. To make sure this doesn't happen again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam jukejoint 2014-03-29 04:56 am UTC (link)
	[A long pause.] What? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-29 04:58 am UTC (link)
	[Frustrated handwave.] I mean you shouldn't be alone. I'll probably be in here a few more days. Stay with Tess or Louis or something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam jukejoint 2014-03-29 05:01 am UTC (link)
	I told you that I'm not fucking leaving, yeah? I'll sleep in the waiting room. Shut up, ok? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-29 05:02 am UTC (link)
	[He sat back a little and looked down.] Yeah? You won't leave? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam jukejoint 2014-03-29 05:05 am UTC (link)
	[She slid off the bed and curled up in the chair in the corner as a response, yeah?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-29 05:07 am UTC (link)
	[He watched her for a couple of seconds before shifting over in the bed, bit by bit, until there was some space.] Come here. I'll give the nurses shit if they say anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

jukejoint
2014-03-29 05:17 am UTC (link)

[She watched him shift, and she cocked her head, blonde tangles tumbling over one shoulder. Quietly, surprised, fingers still twitching.] Yeah? [When she climbed on the bed, it wasn't with the speed from earlier, and she was so, so careful as she clambered up beside him. She curled onto her side, careful to take up as little room as possible, and she was bloodshot eyes and circles from days without any real sleep.] Do you hate me or whatever?

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	Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam incharge 2014-03-29 05:34 am UTC (link)
	[He managed a small smile.] Yeah. [Luckily, her caution meant there wasn't a lot of moving going on, and the pain wasn't anything more than the usual morphine-dulled throbbing.] No, Sam. I don't hate you. [It takes a little reaching, but he managed to find her fingers and entwine theirs together.] Sleep, okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: in person - UMC: neil/sam

jukejoint
2014-03-29 05:48 am UTC (link)

[Her fingers shook against his, and she swallowed back a sob of relief when he said he didn't hate her. Yeah, ok, sleep. She could maybe do that. The exhaustion was strong enough that it made the gnawing in the pit of her stomach quiet somewhat, and her fingers twisted and twisted in his. She didn't say anything, because she didn't want him to change his mind and kick her out or whatever. Yeah, ok, it would be ok. She passed out within minutes, her hand twitching and shaking, even after she'd passed out.]

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