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Bruce Banner (isalwaysangry) wrote in doors,
@ 2014-03-26 22:16:00

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hulk, scarecrow

[Ash and Dair]

[Dair was door side more often than not these days, but the strange part was, as much as he did go there, it felt like it was fading. Like he was being stretched and his thoughts weren't running into Bruce's anymore. Not the way the scientist did when he shut doors on Dair to keep him out of his business, but the start of silence. It was funny because a long time ago he thought silence in his head was normal. Still he let that go because Bruce was saving lives. And there was escapism in that. In being someone else so he didn't have to deal with the madness that was becoming his real life.

That led to him missing a few things and then when he actually checked his phone, dreading it, he saw the details about Ash. He planned on going straight to Neil to see how he was feeling, but he went to Ash first. Dair talked to the doctors when he got there and then parked himself in a chair next to her bed. She was sleeping; from the amount of injuries she sustained, she'd be doing a lot of that. He wasn't sure how long he was there, enough that his back had a twinge in it, but he ignored his phone and stared at her vitals. ]

Fuck. How did we get here? [He mumbles to himself, changing his position in the chair, rubbing a hand across his unshaven jaw. He is going to make sure he's there, whenever she wakes up.]

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Ash & Dair

perspective
2014-03-27 02:36 am UTC (link)

[Everything after the ambulance ride from the hotel to the hospital had been a blur. There were bits and pieces of things she could remember, the sound of doctors, nurses coming in to check on her, and in between all of that there was blessed darkness and the warm, comforting arms of sleep. She was unsure how much time had passed when she finally started to stir, the sound of Dair's voice breaking through the quiet of the hospital room.

There was pain, considerable amounts of it, everything from her face to her head and then down to her wrists. Blinking hurt, so did moving her head in the slightest. But she could see him sitting there by her bed, so with considerable effort, she reached out to touch his arm.]

Hey.

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	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-27 05:40 pm UTC (link)
	[Dair was taken out of his thoughts by seeing her move a little and the touch on his arm.] Hey, hey, don't move too much. [He pulled up the chair closer so he could just take her hand instead, make it easier.] The doctors say you're doing all right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-27 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	[Even though her face is swollen and there are more bruises than the regular shade of her skin showing, she manages a small smile.] Don't feel all right, but they're the experts. [There's a pause.] Neil? Is he okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-28 01:37 am UTC (link)
	No, it won't feel that way, but you will be. And I'm sure they've got you on good drugs. [Dair is very gentle with her hand. Seeing her this way is incredibly painful, like he can almost feel the bruises on his own skin. He only wishes he could take them from her.] He'll be all right too, yeah. It's all going to be fine, love. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-28 01:55 am UTC (link)
	[Her fingers give a little squeeze to his hand, but it doesn't last for long as she winces, the squeeze putting pressure on her wrist.] You all were right, you know. About him. Alexander. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-28 02:21 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't want to be right, Ash. [And that was the truth. He wasn't sure how his brothers felt, but he assumed neither did they. Being right wasn't satisfying, when it caused this much pain.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-28 02:29 pm UTC (link)
	[She lets out a long sigh, rolling over onto her side so it's easier to watch him, cheek pressed into her pillow.] I should have listened. To all of you. I was just a game for him, you know. Just someone to hook in. To hurt. He was good at it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-28 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	Careful. [He warns, watching her carefully.] You wanted to believe in him, it wasn't your fault. You deserve love, the real kind. [The kind she already had before.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-28 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	[She's quiet for a long while, her gaze distant, and there's the sort of sadness in her eyes that hadn't been there in some time, at least not since she had met Alexander.] Sometimes, I wonder if maybe that was my chance. Matthew, that is. And now that he's gone, I've lost it. Maybe you only get one chance at something that good, and if you lose it, you're done. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-28 10:20 pm UTC (link)
	That's not true. There's plenty of people who don't get it right the first time, or even the second time. Or lose their spouse and go on to the next. [Dair was not a fan of monogamy or serious relationships himself, but he appreciated other people wanting them.] It seems impossible now, but that'll change. You shouldn't give up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-28 10:34 pm UTC (link)
	[Ash looks up to study him for a long while.] I know that. But I meant... what if he was the one. The person I was meant to be with? It would be rather selfish of me to think that there were many out there for me, wouldn't it? [She's quiet again, squeezing his hand again.] I liked him a lot, Dair. I think I told him that I loved him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-29 02:57 am UTC (link)
	I'm not sure the world works that way, Ash. One person for everyone. It's not selfish to want good things for yourself. [He doesn't squeeze her hand in case it hurts, but runs his thumb on her knuckles.] You did like him, but maybe you made yourself love him. Or think you did, because of the situation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-29 03:02 pm UTC (link)
	[There's the quiet again, eyes closing as she tries to stamp down that sorrow that's welling up in her again.] Can I have a drink of water? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-29 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	Of course. [Dair gets up briefly so he can fetch her some and comes back with an extra pitcher full of it for later.] I can get you ice chips too in a bit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-29 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	[There's a struggle to sit up to take the glass to drink from, the top of the bed lifting to support her, and when the cup is finally put down, she turns to look towards Dair.] I'm sorry. I really am. [The offer of the ice chips forgotten for the moment.] You should- You should go be with Neil. He's the one who really needs us right now. Needs you. The others. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-30 03:45 pm UTC (link)
	Neil's got everyone else right now, you need someone with you. Lou will be around tomorrow to check on you. We can take shifts. What good is there to have a giant family anyway? [Dair smiles a little to reassure her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-30 03:47 pm UTC (link)
	Tell Louis not to worry. I told him I wouldn't bother him... or the rest of you, but here I am. [Ash watches him for a long while, a faint smile coming to her lips before she settles back in against the mattress.] Tired though. Thanks for coming to check on me. Means a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-30 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	It's not a bother. You're our sister. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-30 09:20 pm UTC (link)
	[She doesn't even try to argue against it. She knows how it is, even if he says something different. She was the traitor, she was the one who should have known better, and they deserved a better sibling than she could ever offer.] I'm going to get some sleep, Dair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair isalwaysangry 2014-03-31 02:32 am UTC (link)
	All right. I'll be here all night. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ash & Dair perspective 2014-03-31 02:38 am UTC (link)
	[There's a quiet smile before she shifts slightly and closes her eyes and lets sleep claim her once more] (Reply to this) (Parent)