My grandfather, who helped raise me along with my mother, who lived with me for eighteen years, is dying. This man is more like a father to me than anyone else in my life and he's been withering away over the past few months after being sick for the better part of a year.
I still haven't dealt with the grief of losing three other grandparents over the past four years, so I am probably going to absolutely lose it when he goes.
Also I have no job, can't pay rent, am approximately $5000 in debt and in bills that are coming in monthly, and I can't buy a single christmas present for anyone this year and that makes me immensely sad.