im sorry for this but i really have noone else to turn to right now. im going through the hardest break-up of my life right now. i feel like i'm literally falling apart. i can't fall asleep or eat without wanting to throw up or get nausceous. i have this terrible anxious feeling inside my stomach all day and i feel like i just want to find a way to end everything and just die. i dont know how to be an individual by myself. for so long ive spent everyday with this person and growing with eachother and loving eachother and now because i made the most horrible mistake of my life..he "loves" me but just can't seem to be with me right now. he said that he doesnt know if he can move past it and that i really hurt him with what i said. i destroyed the one person that ever gave a damn about me and now i dont know how to move on. ive had breakups before but none that hurt this bad. it just feels wrong, and i feel like its a mistake. i wish he would give me one last chance so i can change and if after that i screw up, he can leave me for good. i cannot stop crying and everything in my body hurts to the point where i just want to end everything for myself. i dont know how to deal with this. i dont really have close friends or a relationship with my parents in which they understand. he was everything to me as cliche as that may sound. im so lost, please if you can tell me what i should do to stop this pain. i cant breathe, i cant think, i dont know what to do at all at this point