Dia realized if she didn't pull it together, they would get no where. She took a deep breath and tried again. "Look, I mess up. A lot. I always have. I make stupid decisions without thinking of the consequences. I'm selfish as hell. I have a horrible temper when provoked. I commit to things and I never fail to find a way to fuck it up. With a track record like that, I started letting it go, getting over it, and not caring." She paused awkwardly because, I mean really, openly admitting how shallow of a person you are is kind of an unpleasant feeling. For the first time in this little speech, she looked directly at Stephen, "But for all that I might have tried, I can't do that with you and with this. The best starting point I can find is that I'm sorry."