I’m an idiot and I should have put an end to this stupid situation I'm in when we talked about it last. I’m going to send back the ring and get the contract formally made null and void with a solicitor’s help.
I’ve hurt and disappointed a lot of people (including both of you) with my bad decisions and I don’t know exactly what I need to do to make things right. Those two things for sure, but I have no idea about the rest.
Weirdly enough, one of the biggest things that helped me make a decision was something Val said. She was lecturing me for apologizing to Fred for my journal post about getting a black eye, and told me I’m going to be an Avery and should behave the part. I’ve compartmentalized and compromised my sense of empathy too much already by going along with this as much as I have.
I’m willing to go as far as an Unbreakable Vow to hold myself accountable.