GN.
No, come on, don't do that. We've done a pretty brilliant job of fooling everyone, I think, even ourselves. Please don't think that about yourself, it isn't true at all.
I'm going to ask, at least. I've already decided that. Just ... I can't really say this to Rhys, you know? He already blames himself. And it's helping me. Putting it to words like this. I hope that makes sense.