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Akuba Maeko ([info]giantfruitbyday) wrote in [info]disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-12-23 01:31:00

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Entry tags:kanaye, kiriko, maeko, renju

Who: Maeko, open
What: Doing something really stupid
Where: Butt-erfly room
When: After all this crap
Why: There is no more rage.

There was a small hallway somewhere in the butterfly room. 'Somewhere' because the door kind of appreared when it felt it was wanted.

The doors in the hallway, with the exception of the one leading back into the butterfly room, were white, each decorated with a brightly coloured wooden ornamant like the door to a child's bedroom might be. From an ambulence and a game controller and a cake to the newest, a notebook and pencil, they were all in somewhat poor taste.

Outside the door that was decorated with a red bird (which really didn't help. Everything she was...even that door was defined by Misaki.) was a shapeless bundle of blankets. Every now and then it sobbed. Sometimes it reached up toward the handle and one of the large hands flanking it would pull it back while the other scurried off and produced another blanket out of nowhere and added it to the pile a if it would do any good. It didn't seem like it would be too difficult to just slip out from under the blankets to enter but the hands seemed to be doing a passable job of keeping this from happenning. Maeko was happy to pretend to herself that they were preventing her from going through.

In reality, she had chickenned out. All the rage, all the adrenaline, all the will to do anything at all was gone. She was angry only at herself, and even then only vaguely.



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[info]lotus_beyond
2009-12-23 02:44 am UTC (link)
The pile of blankets was an addition to the hallway that Renju was unfamiliar with. (So was the new door, but she could guess at its purpose. Not that she wanted to, but it came to mind unbidden.) The hands seemed to be fussing over it unduly, which they only really seemed to do to visitors (and the hugdolls), at least in her experience.

She wasn't quite sure what had brought her back here. She certainly wasn't intending to go back in--she hadn't even wanted to just after she'd been forced back out. Kiriko's words had stuck in her head more than all the speeches the others had given her Shadow, and she wasn't sure if that was a good thing. Keiichi had helped, to be sure, but it was a despair that had been difficult to shake off.

Wary of anything to do with Paradise, she nudged the blankets with a cautious loafer-clad toe.

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-12-23 02:52 am UTC (link)
Kanaye sighed as he entered the butterfly room. He really wasn't helping people out with the "coward" thing, was he? Either way, he had made up his mind. This might make Maeko fall in love with him again...or at least, make her not hate him. Honestly, Kanaye wasn't sure if you go into paradise THROUGH the butterfly room or not but he didn't really care enough.

Noticing the crowd, Kanaye blinked. What the heck were the blankets doing there? Confused, he walked over. "What's going on?" His face was blank; his voice, monotone.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-12-23 02:53 am UTC (link)
The bundle of blankets turned around, alarmed. The newest blanket, thrown carelessly on top of tie pile, slid off. A hand returned it carefully.

"Oh, Sonozaki-san."

That wasn't so bad. She'd understand, right? Building yourself around the orders of people who didn't matter to the point where you were nothing without them? It seemed familiar.

Except then there was Kanaye (who she really didn't want to speak to right now) and possibly Kiriko. "Oh."

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[info]lotus_beyond
2009-12-23 02:57 am UTC (link)
"Akuba-san?" Kanaye was... not someone Renju wanted to talk to in better times, let alone now, and she had no idea of the recent drama involving the pair of them.

Thus, she focused her attention on the blanket-covered figure in front of the door. "What are you doing here?" You told Sagaki-sempai not to enter Paradise alone, she didn't add; she had enough tact not to bring up that particular experience at least.

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-12-23 02:59 am UTC (link)
"Maeko-san!" Kanaye's face managed to light up in delight and widen in fear at the same time. Kanaye didn't want to talk to Renju either, but...

So, likewise, he ignored her in favor of his ex-girlfriend. "Maeko-san, is everything alright? You weren't trying to go back into your dungeon, right?" Kanaye's voice managed to gain some fear.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-12-23 03:03 am UTC (link)
"I was-" Maeko, having hurriedly rubbed her face on the blankets, cut her explaination off when Kanaye guessed it in one. "...it seemed like it would be a nice place to be. But then I fell down and they put blankets on me."

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-12-23 03:22 am UTC (link)
Kanaye twitched. "Maeko-san, that's...You shouldn't do something like that! I'm sorry, alright, but I don't want you to hurt your self on my account. Please, Maeko-san!" Kanaye kneeled and bowed to her. "Please, don't hurt yourself. I'm sorry!"

Kanaye ignored the hypocrisy. He was too busy making sure he HAD a girlfriend to reconcile with in order to think about much else. "And you can find other friends. Please, Maeko-san, I'm sorry."

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-12-23 03:32 am UTC (link)

Kiriko entered after the rest of the party but found what was going on easy to surmise - the behaviour of the hands and the symbol on the door explained the pile of blankets, though not as well as Kanaye's presence. Why Renju was there was still a mystery - she hung back by the door, listening to muffled sobs and 'I'm sorries' before finally deciding to step in.

"What are you doing, Satou?" She was glad she wore heeled shoes today - they made an authoritative click as she crossed the floor, and she was quite sad to hear them die when she hit carpet. "That's Akuba-san under there, right? Do you really think that badgering her is going to get you anywhere?"

She stopped distant enough from him that she wouldn't have to look very far up to frown in disapproval.
"You should go. I'll take care of this."

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[info]lotus_beyond
2009-12-23 03:57 am UTC (link)
All at once, once she understood Maeko's reason for being there. Renju's face darkened. She'd never really let herself care enough about anything to get past 'annoyed' or 'impatient', and that mostly in Paradise. That, however--whether due to that well-timed talk with Keiichi or merely hitting a newly-developed button--seemed to pierce right through those barriers and create a look on her face that barely felt familiar even to her.

She glanced up at Kiriko, letting her take care of Kanaye and his sobbing (something she had zero patience for right now--the cause didn't matter, just the effect), before turning her attention to Maeko. "I thought the same thing." Her voice was taut, quiet and intense. "That place... I hated it, but it was everything I thought I wanted.

"But all I was doing was running away. That's all I'd been doing all my life, and I've finally realized that I need to stop. And so do you."

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-12-23 04:05 am UTC (link)
"No, but I need to make her realize killing herself is not the answer!" Kanaye stood up and tried to glare at Kiriko, but he only managed to look somewhat displeased. "She's trying to go back into paradise. Renju-san has that covered, but..." He sighed. "I'm just trying to make it up to her."

He shook his head. "No. I'm not leaving. I need to make it up to Maeko-san. Even if she doesn't want me to." Kanaye nodded. "I doubt you could do much more then me."

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-12-23 04:15 am UTC (link)
Renju was terifying at the best of times. Maeko suddenly felt very small. Would she even be able to reach the door handle?

"...I already tried. And I can't go back, it's bad. This is a lot less trouble." She said, feeling like a child even as she argued.

"It's not because of you, senpai. It's..." She shook her head.

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-12-23 04:27 am UTC (link)
She folded her arms over her chest and circled him, putting herself between Kanaye and Maeko. His behaviour was pathetic and she wasn't in the mood to tolerate it - it was a shame she couldn't physically remove him.

"I don't care what you're trying to do, I told you to get out. Don't you understand? She doesn't want to talk to you right now. This has nothing to do with help her and everything to do with satisfying your selfishness. She needs space. You think she's going to jump into Paradise while I'm standing right here? No, she isn't. So get out." The last two words were hissed more than spoken.

"Or are you just going to admit to us all right now that you don't care about what she needs or wants in the first place?"

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-12-23 04:32 am UTC (link)
"What she WANTS and what she NEEDS are two entirely different things, Kiriko-san." Kanaye said monotone. "I admit I am too clingy and that this may be a bad time right now. But, think about it." Kanaye tried to glare again. "If the person you cared about most in the world was trying to kill themselves, wouldn't you be a little upset and illogical?"

"I'm trying to make it up to her, Kiriko-san."

Kanaye sighed. "Look, even if it isn't, I'm worry. I know you've heard this several times before, but...I don't want to see you hurt, whether it's by yourself or anyone else. Even if it was a lot less trouble, that's what friends and lovers are for. Even if you don't think anyone cares about you...we do."

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-12-23 04:38 am UTC (link)
"Of course, you're right. What she wants isn't what she needs. But she doesn't need you."

She turned half-back and waved the hands over to her.

"Don't give me your sob story. I'm her friend. You can make it up to her when she's ready to see you. Now put yourself aside for half a second, turn around and go."

A point towards the door was an indication to the handservants as much as to Kanaye.

"Or I'll have them take you out."

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[info]zealousemperor
2009-12-23 04:43 am UTC (link)
Kanaye shrugs. "If you insist, Kiriko-san.

But..." He sighed. "Whatever. Hope you get better soon, Maeko-san."

Kanaye, about to leave, turned and looked at the hands. "By the way. Never listen to Kiriko Ikeda ever again." He doubted it would work, but it was the only thing he could try.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-12-23 04:39 pm UTC (link)
Glad about not having to drag anyone out the hands waved goodbye more happily than was really appropriate.

"...it really wasn't him but. Thank you." Maeko's attempt at protesting was weak and cut off by gratefulness. It wasn't Kanaye's fault (or anyone's but her own, really. She's walked here. She'd decided this was what she wanted. She was the one who'd done every stupid thing leading up to this.) that all this had happenned but that didn't mean she particularly wanted to speak to him. Even Renju right now terrified her less than the idea of...she couldn't even come up with the words. Acceptance, maybe.

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[info]lotus_beyond
2009-12-23 07:45 pm UTC (link)
"Trying and failing doesn't mean you stop trying."

On some level, Renju knew her annoyance wasn't just with Maeko, nor with the mini-drama playing out behind her (though she was thankful for Kiriko's presence keeping her from having to deal with it herself). Though their issues were different (she simply didn't get the triangle, and didn't care to), she was realizing that there was far too much of her own mindset in Maeko right now to face this with her usual detachment.

And so, when she spoke, it was as much to herself as to Maeko. Self-awareness, she was rapidly coming to realize, was both gift and curse. "I don't know or understand the situation with you and Satou-senpai and whoever else, but I do know that running away, whether it's into that place or not, just causes more trouble for everyone involved." She paused briefly, picking at something on her sweater to hide her discomfort. "Especially yourself."

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-12-24 02:02 am UTC (link)
She'd been paying only cursory attention to Renju's speech to Maeko, but with Kanaye out of the picture, she turned and caught the tail end. She wasn't sure she'd ever caught Renju speaking so emotionally. Even on the other night... She always seemed characterized by restraint.

She lay one hand on the couch and leaned against it lightly. It seemed somehow best to just wait in the wings for now - the situation was probably embarassing for both of them to find themselves in.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-12-24 03:05 am UTC (link)
Maeko listenned. Renju somehow seemed more human now, though it didn't make her any more or less intimidating.

She looked up longingly at the door handle but did nothing. Kiriko had been right, she wasn't going anywhere while the two of them were both here. She hadn't been getting anywhere before, either, but that was not the point.

"But..." She protested weakly. If she went back she had to do something. And that meant finding something to do. Summer homework was all already done, she'd always been too busy with Misaki to find a hobby or other friends or anything. Within a few days she'd gone from exhausting herself with more work than she should reasonably be doing to having nothing at all. "I don't have anything to go back to. If there's another then maybe the police'll finally pay attention, right? That'll be useful, at least..."

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[info]lotus_beyond
2009-12-24 03:46 am UTC (link)
Renju's eyes squeezed shut for a moment. This was getting frustrating in a way that she was not at all accustomed to, and she wasn't quite sure how to deal with it. She wasn't a giver of advice--normally she wasn't even a taker of advice, really. But that was the position she'd ended up in, it seemed.

"That's nothing but a poor excuse, and you know it." As frustration shifted to impatience, she was starting to slip into that voice she used when the team was being particularly frustrating. "All I ever had was my schoolwork. I... I still don't have anything else. Not yet." Her voice faltered and softened slightly as she realized what she was saying; she'd never been comfortable talking about herself, but the words were spilling out faster than she could keep them in. "But the answer to that is looking for something else, not trying to make it all go away."

It was right about then that she realized that that was just what Keiichi had told her. Were the nakama speeches rubbing off on her?

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[info]apathyisboring
2009-12-24 04:03 am UTC (link)
"Kind of strange." Kiriko's voice was light and airy, drifting rather than breaking through the silence that followed Renju's words. "You would think that stopping a murderer and staying alive and having a group like this and all of these strange powers would be enough to fill you up."

She could sympathize, but someone ought to point out what was right there in front of them. It was almost so routine by now she was sure she wasn't the only one having trouble keeping perspective.

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[info]giantfruitbyday
2009-12-24 04:11 am UTC (link)
"...but I can't do anything more useful and- Misaki-" Maeko cut herself off, shaking her head. "I couldn't do this anyway. I got too scared. I'll work on finding the murderer instead..."

After a mess of contradictory mumbles she shifted underneath all the blankets. Was she really too weak even to move or were there just that many things on top of her?

It was a latter, it seemed, and once the top layer of unwanted blankets slid away she could move a lot more easily. The first hand launched itself at the door, wrapping itself around the handle so she couldn't open it. She didn't really intend to, complaining in a weak voice about 'she's even on the door.' and instead turning around and folding up the top few blankets.

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