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Aoi, Misaki (pinksunbeam) wrote in disappear_rpg,
@ 2009-11-06 12:11:00

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keiichi, misaki

Who: Misaki and Keiichi
What: Talking about certain things in the Dungeon
Where: On the roof of the school after Misaki feels better
When: Lunch as Misaki made a picnic for them.
Why: Because she wants to apologize for what was said in there.

Misaki looked over the blankets she had laid out. A mix of cool blues and reds with checkered patterns lay on the roof of the school. Pillows for comfort, and two champagne glasses filled with sparking cider sat on the blankets. Besides this was a basket with Keiichi's favorite foods and Misaki looked satisfied.

She knew she had a lot to deal with, not just for the dungeon, but for how she had been acting before. She was so wrapped up in the problem with Maeko she hadn't realized how hard she'd made things for him. And what sort of friend, or girlfriend, should cause that sort of trouble? Misaki shook her head some, and then there was the coffin and him being trapped in it. She knew what that was for, keeping things that were close to her safe, like snow white. The whole glass coffin was for keeping them from being hurt, and it had made her cringe. Had she really been thinking about all those things? The answer was yes, and she knew it.

Urgh, I just hope he forgives me. I owe him a lot for all that crap that my shadow put him through...no what I put him through. Misaki thought and pushed her hair back over her ear. Still she hoped he would come. She'd left a note in his locker saying that she would meet him for lunch on the roof with a surprise.

Fixing the white dress she had changed into Misaki waited nervously and cringed. Maybe this wasn't a good idea. What if he was mad now that he had time to think. God she hoped not. She wanted this to work...she didn't want to hurt him. So she kept looking at her cellphone and the door to the roof and hoped and prayed that Keiichi would come up to see her.

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keiito
2009-11-08 01:00 am UTC (link)

When she had asked him to show up on the roof for lunch, he hadn't expected this. Not anything close.

"I...I..." Keiichi's cheeks were a bright shade of pink. "You didn't have to do all of this..."

Quietly, he took a seat next to her, crossing his legs. "Thank you, though," Keiichi managed, trying to quell the blush.

With the exception of a few conversations via text, this was the first time they'd really been able to talk in any details.

"Mi-chan, before you start, you have nothing to apologize for." As far as he was concerned, she didn't. The fact that she was here now and okay was enough. Besides, that glass coffin had been the Shadow's decision, not hers.

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pinksunbeam
2009-11-08 03:47 am UTC (link)

Misaki blinked and smiled at him softly, "No I do though. It was me repressing all of that for so long that got you into that mess in the first place. If I had just...just taken care of my own wants, I guess, that wouldn't have happened. But I didn't, and you were hurt because of it."

Misaki sat down next to him and started to pull out the food, "So I thought and thought, about how I could make it up to everyone. Especially you and Maeko-chan. And, I decided the best way was to explain what I was afraid of. With us, and well, the situation."

She blushed some and looked down, "I heard what she said, I could see everything. I...I really do sometimes wonder why it is you want to date me. More then that, I'm scared of the what ifs. What if I can't meet what standard you have for me? Or for that matter what if...what if we ever..." she blushed even harder and mumbled softly, "make love at some point..." swallowing some Misaki looked at him.

"I...I'm just scared that Kanaye-sempai's going to be right. That maybe subconciously you'll compare me to Kozue-chan," Misaki pushed back her hair, she couldn't meet him in the eye for fear she would start turning redder then she was, "To be honest, I don't know what I'm doing. I can only guess due to manga and dramas, and even then...I...what if I don't make you happy? What if you decide in the end that really I'm just a nice girl that you liked."

Misaki looked at Keiichi softly, "I don't want to end up breaking your heart Keiichi-kun. I really don't, but I don't want to fail you as a girlfriend. So please, tell me what you want me to be, so I know what you want out of this realtionship and so I'm not guessing and worrying that I'm doing the wrong things."

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keiito
2009-11-09 09:05 pm UTC (link)

This already was a lot different from his last relationship. Far less eye rolling, and far more pouring out of hearts.

Keiichi was a lot more capable of dealing with the latter than the former.

"We're all repressing things, Misaki. Everyone in the world does. There's no one who's willing to be completely open about every flaw they have."

That was why Paradise was so insidious to Keiichi. It was seemingly inevitable that people would end up there. And if so, why hadn't similar such situations ever occurred before. Maybe they were and he simply didn't know.

He paused for a moment, in an effort to collect his thoughts. "Why you? If I could explain that entirely, I don't think it would be a good thing. Emotions and logic are two entirely different things. I could say that you've been a very good friend to me, that we like a lot of the same things, and that you're pretty and sweet...but none of that's the whole story, you know? There's something there, an emotional connection that's a lot harder to give hows and whys to. With Kondo-san, I knew exactly why we were dating. I think that was part of the problem, really."

Another mental reminder that he really needed to talk to Kozue at some point.

"If we let ourselves worry about what-ifs too much, Misa-chan, we'll never do anything. There's no guarantee our relationship will work, but there's no guarantee it won't. All we can do is try and see what happens. But the reason we're trying is that we both like each other and want it to work. Isn't that enough?"

Keiichi wasn't one for analysis. He'd done enough of that lately in relation to Paradise.

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pinksunbeam
2009-11-09 09:17 pm UTC (link)

Misaki took in everything, then nodded, and let out a breath she had been holding and threw her arms around him kissing him gently. Then giggled just a bit blushing, "That's why I like you Keiikun, you...you don't mind being honest with me. And I'm sorry if my shadow was a bit forth coming, I hope she didn't embaress you too much."

She blushed some and sat back grabbing a plate, "Here, I tried to make some lasanga. I hope it worked out right."

"By the way, um...would...would you like to go see a movie or something this week?" Misaki cut a bit off and offered him a taste. "Oh and I'm going to try to move back into the dorms so I can see you more often."

"There's so much that I have to catch up on, Maeko-chan said I can move back in with her, and she got a sheet for making a club, namely one that's for Fashion. Although I don't know how many people we'll get. Um...if we need to make a guys outfit, could you be the human model please. I would ask Kanaye-semapi, but I think I might accidently purposly stick him with a pin or two."

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