My SO of 12 years has been very depressed lately and has been speaking of suicide. He is usually an unemotional, undemonstrative man, very even-tempered and calm. Over the last dew weeks he has been almost violently upset, one night sobbing about how he hated his life, how he was worthless, how he wanted to kill himself. The other day he carefully told me he had made me his beneficiary in the event of his death. A few days ago, I saw he had googled "noose knots" and "hangman's knots" on the PC.
I've held and talked to him and listened to him without talking for hours. I've insisted he go to the doctor & seek treatment for depression - he refuses: "what good would that do?" he asks.