Time, right, that was the line. Time to heal. Time to grow. Time to grow away from Cai so the pain of being close him didn't hurt anymore. Thinking about it that way made everything worse; she didn't want to grow away from him. "What if I messed up?" she asked, before she'd even had a chance to think about her words. She hadn't messed up, she had to do it, the pressure of it all was too much to bear.
But the good bits, she thought. Despite the pressure. The good bits.