Gift For:serpenscript Title: Only Human Author: Pairing(s): Remus/Severus Summary: Lily can see something's changed between her friends, but she isn't quite sure what it is or why it's happened. Rating: NC17 Word count: 2,877
Warnings: Slash, non-con/rape, violence/abuse, voyeurism, masturbation, dark!fic, sadism, humiliation, teen angst, language, Wolf!Remus (not Werewolf!Remus, just Wolf!Remus, where the werewolf's personality bleeds into his own), some OOC on Remus' part (because of the wolf thing I just mentioned). Also, the characters here are 17 years of age, which is above the age of consent in most places.
Author's notes: Well, I did go over the word limit by accident (that's why I included it), but I cleared it with mod and she gave me the okay (thank you!). So, I almost fainted in happiness when I saw the prompts asked for. They made my brain twist and churn deviously. Here I went for the second fic prompt requested, the one where Lupin shags Snape. I will however, be writing the third fic prompt requested of Snape and Lupin deflowering Lily, extra. I thank you serpenscript for having such an interesting mind. Excuse me now, I believe a hand basket is waiting for me somewhere. XD
It had been odd, Lily noted one day as she watched her two friends arguing yet again, that she hadn't been able to see what the totality of their constant bickering meant at the time. Together, Remus, Severus, and herself, had gotten along like three perfect pieces to a puzzle, almost as if they'd been destined to be friends since birth. At first though, Lily hadn't thought Remus would befriend them, not when she saw how chummy he was with Potter and Black, but he had managed to surprise her. Many a time when his mates had gotten a little too touchy feely with her or too slap happy with Severus, Remus would intervene and scold the devious duo as if he were their mum. The funny part was that they hung their heads in shame and sulked off when he was done. It helped Lily and Severus to earn his trust. With time, Remus fell into place amongst Severus and herself, and that was great for a long while. Then it changed near the end of their sixth year - well, between Remus and Severus it did.
The fairly close boys began to bicker more often then was normal for them. Occasional bickerings were always bound to happen in friendships, but this was different for some reason. Lily realized at the start of their seventh year that things seemed strained between them, as if they were fighting something that was invisible. She wondered if they were growing apart, all three of them were now at the cusp of adulthood, graduation looming only months away. However, she then noted that Severus had seemed uncomfortable only when around Remus and it confused her greatly. There had never been any problems before such as that, even Lily had never had that problem, though she wondered if it was because her best friend since she was a child, was a boy. Lily finally found out why they'd been constantly bickering one day when she had returned after class to collect a parchment left in her desk. The class had been dismissed ten minutes prior so she was surprised to see her two best friends inside, talking rather curtly to each other. Sidling against the wall, she eavesdropped in on them.
"I've told you how many times now?" Severus asked, his arms folded.
"Oh sod off, Sir Prince. You know I told you I wasn't going to touch you." Remus argued, fists balled at his sides.
Severus snorted, disbelieving his friend's words.
Livid, Remus threw up his hands and stomped his foot. "Fine! You know what? You're so paranoid around me because I told you I fancy blokes? Even though I told you repeatedly I wouldn't try anything with you? You know what then, I'm going to try something with you."
Shuffling backwards slightly from the other young man, Severus tried to keep his features controlled. "Don't you dare. I told you if you touch me, I'd..."
"What?" Remus challenged, tired of this same constant threats. He'd heard them so many times, they held no meaning to him anymore. "You'll jinx me? Give me a rash? Tell the headmaster?"
Darting forward, the taller young man grabbed the Slytherin roughly by his arms and pressed his lips to surprised ones. It took only a second for Severus to pull himself together and push the Gryffindor away violently. Wiping his mouth and spitting on the floor, he glared hard at Remus.
"Do that again and I'll skin you alive, Wolf."
"Fuck you. You'll do nothing and you know how I know? Because you have no friends other than Lily and myself. Without us, you're scared and invisible. Invisible people aren't heard."
"Don't take me so light, Lupin. I can be a force to be reckon with too." With that, he turned to leave and Lily took her cue to get away from the door to avoid being seen. Having departed, she missed Remus' last words to Severus.
"We'll see about that, Sev."
If there were two things Lily were, they were a best friend, the kind that did not repeat what her friend had told her. She was also a worrier, especially with situations involving her friends. It had seemed for a while after the kiss that Remus or Severus would spontaneously combust if near each other. It was hard to see less and less of her friends as they found isolation to be better then each other's company. Then, out of nowhere, one day, Remus came to her, all smiles and joking. He pretended as if he hadn't been avoiding the world for the last several days or had forcibly kissed his best male friend. With effort, she tried to go along with his avoidance but something felt strange and off putting about it. When Severus saw that Remus had recovered from his funk, Lily could see the confliction in his gaze as he debated with everything he had as to whether or not he should join them.
He never did, eventually drifting away from both of them.
Then it everything changed again, turning in a whole other direction that she could not have possible seen even if she had wanted to.
Lily's worries about everything that had been transpiring had eventually ate into her dreams, keeping her up half the night tossing and turning. Reluctantly making friends with insomnia, she began exploring the school's corridors at night with the aid of James' Invisibility Cloak. It was nice sneaking along the corridors or some nights the school grounds if it wasn't too cold out. This particular night found her out by the lake, gazing up at the almost full moon. Remus would be taking up residence in the Shrieking Shack soon, she knew. He had never allowed herself or Severus to join him, fearful for what he might do to them. It bothered her immensely that Sirius, James, and the rat boy, Peter, got to be with him during his most difficult time of the month. She had heard his howls once and they made her realize it was probably best for her not to see him like that.
Creeping back into Hogwarts, Lily wandered aimlessly, wondering if she should try for sleep or give it a bit longer when she heard muffled voices near by. Moving quietly, she rounded a corner and was surprised to see Severus and Remus facing each other silently. For a long time, neither said anything but Lily could see the unease on the Slytherin's face and wondered what she had just walked in on. Severus, brushed his hand through his hair and frowned at the other young man, chewing his lip slightly before speaking.
"I don't think we should be friends anymore."
Now Remus frowned, anger seeping into his words. "Why not? I apologized. What more do you want of me?"
"I don't want anything of you, Wolf. I'd prefer if you stayed as far away from me as possible."
Remus balled his fists trying to control his anger, but it was an impossible feat. The wolf in him was only a day or so from emerging. It was consuming his persona bit by bit, blending it's own into the normally calm and friendly one of the Gryffindor. The moonlight washing over them from a nearby window probably did little to help Remus control the wolf.
"I won't do that." He growled, his fists balled so tight that blood was beginning to fall as he fought the inevitable. "I can't do that, Sev."
"Why not?" Severus prompted.
Remus, no longer himself as his eyes bled black, launched himself at the Slytherin, knocking him back onto the floor violently. Nose to nose, Remus, or what was left of him as the wolf took over his actions, growled low in his throat.
"I. Love. You!" He said through clenched teeth as he mashed his lips against Severus', his bloody palms gripping the other's robe, staining it.
Without transforming physically, the beast within overwhelmed Remus' every thought, blocking out his modesty and self control. Severus raised his hands to try and push the young man off of him and as far away from his lips as possible, but the beast snarled and gripped his wrists, slamming them to the floor. Lips captured his again, before sliding down to his neck, biting hard and leaving various bruises in his wake. Struggling only served to arouse Remus' hunger and desire for his friend making the bites harder, drawing blood on some. Confident that Severus was no match physically for him, Remus let the wrists go, his fingermarks buried deep into the skin. Clawing now at clothes that obstructed him from the flesh he really wanted to sink his teeth into, Severus continued his feeble struggles unwillingly to throw in the towel that easily. When the front of his shirt had been ripped away and his trousers had been torn where the zipper once was, his struggling became strained.
Grinning to himself, the wolf in Remus set to marking every bit of skin it saw. The area around Severus' nipples was bitten to blood while the actual nipple was toyed with wickedly with teeth and tongue. Even though the Slytherin still fought, his body arched against the feelings making him squirm more in an attempt to get away. Remus would have none of that as he moved lower on his friend's body, the pants pulled away. The boxers beneath ripped to shreds and fingers dug roughly into pale thighs, holding Severus in place as panic made him kick out trying to fell Remus. A hungry mouth latched onto Severus' penis, forcing a hiss of pleasure out of him before he began clawing and smacking at Remus's face. Getting him good in the eye, Remus howled in pain and rose, holding Severus awkwardly up by his ankles.
"I was going to play nice, but you've given me no other choice. You never give me any other choices!" Remus said, his voice scratchy and rough as he flipped Severus over on his stomach.
Frozen with shock and fear, Lily's mind scrambled to figure out what it should do. Should she unmask herself and risk the wolf's fury? She could clearly see it was not Remus anymore in control and that frighten her greatly because she knew she was finally seeing the beast within her friend, the one he had tried to guard her and Severus from. Except now the beast was attacking Severus, bruising and bloodying him and Lily could nothing to aid either of her friends. Making a conscious effort to move, Lily instead pressed her back into the edge of the wall and slid down, her hand slipping into her panties. As horrified as she was by Remus' loss of control, the things she saw him doing to Severus aroused her greatly, more then she'd ever been aroused. Her fingers slipped against her clit and entrance with ease, she was already so wet from the whole thing. It bothered her that she was this aroused, but as her finger rubbed at her clit and she kept watching, that thought vanished from her mind altogether.
No more then thirty feet away, Remus grabbed Severus by the hair and pulled him to his feet where he swayed faintly. Neither could be sure if it was from the mauling or that Severus' limbs were growing tired from trying to struggle so hard. He wasn't resigning himself to what was happening, even battered and half naked, clothes tattered all around him, Severus wasn't a quitter. However, when Remus pinned him to a wall, one arm twisted behind him, most of his hope of getting away flitted away. The beast could sense the fight begin to go out of the young man and he growled, the fighting had been feeding his hunger.
"You pathetic fool, you're just giving up? You must want me to fuck you as hard as I can." He taunted, trying to fuel Severus' anger.
"I'm not giving up. I don't want you to fuck me or touch me anymore!" Severus spat, squirming as best as he could against the other young man.
"You're a total puff. You practically asking for it!" Remus laughed as he undid the zipper to his pants and freed his erection with one hand.
"I am not! You're the puff!"
"Yes, you do sound like a fucking puff saying that."
"FUCK YOU!" Severus shouted, kicking backwards at Remus' leg.
The Gryffindor didn't even flinch as he grinned wickedly and used the pain in Severus' captured arm to make him bend forward. Seeing his chance, he forced his erection into the offered anus making the Slytherin cry out in shock and pain. Mostly pain.
"Merlin, you're so tight, Sev." Remus groaned as he withdrew and slammed back in bringing tears to Severus' eyes. "It's too bad for you my penis is so large, huh?"
Remus laughed as Severus began to weep, struggling only in vain now. "Get off me!" He sniffed.
"Does it hurt, Sev?" When he didn't get an answer, he pulled out all the way and pushed even harder into the Slytherin, smashing his face into the wall. A nod as he pulled out halfway. "Good. Now you know how I felt every time you accused me of hitting on you or some other despicable lie that only existed in your narrow-minded mind."
Pulling Severus away from the wall, he pulled out and pushed him to the floor, pouncing on him before Severus thought about getting away. Remus positioned the Slytherin on all fours, pushing into him again before Severus could argue a word. Pain made Severus whimper as he tried to fight the tears, but the pain was unbearable to him. Fingers digging into his hips, Remus slammed repeatedly into Severus, no lubrication other then some blood to ease the pain. Severus probably would have killed himself right then if he knew that Lily was watching with a perfect view of everything that was happening. Her heart bled for her friend's plight, but her fingers worked her into a orgasm and then another. Watching was too arousing for her. She felt disgusted with herself and yet didn't care enough to stop.
Behind Severus, Remus grunted animalistically as he neared his climax. hearing the Slytherin's whimpers and feeling him clenched so tightly around his dick made quick work of him. When he came, Remus quickly pulled out and pushed Severus to his side so his come could shoot out on the degraded Slytherin's abdomen and chest. The wolf sated for the moment, pulled back, allowing Remus complete control over himself again. For a long time he held his now soft dick in his hand and stared at the what he had done. He waited for guilt and shame to take over, but perhaps he was too close to the full moon for him to outright feel it? Severus stared at the floor, unable to think of what to say or do anymore. Lily bit her hand to blood as she spasmed one last time and felt guilty for what she had done.
Remus eventually fixed himself up and helped Severus to his feet, cleaning and mending his clothes with several spells. The Slytherin refused to meet his eyes as he simply walked away when he was done. Walking to the window and staring out at the moon, Remus remained silent. Lily took her cue to exit, pushing herself up and leaning against the wall to steady her wobbly legs. Just as she turned to slip back to the safety of her dorm, sleep finally taking it's hold on her, Remus spoke.
"I'm an animal, aren't I?" He asked, still staring out the window.
Lily turned to her friend, wishing she could say something. She was surprised when he turned his gaze straight at her. "I don't feel an ounce of remorse for what I did, so I must be an animal, right?"
The redhead paled as she reached a shaking hand up to remove the cloak. "How did you know?"
A smirk. "I could smell you when the wolf was in control."
Cursing her stupidity, Lily twisted the cloak in her hands as she decided how to answer her friend's question.
"You're not an animal, Remus. You're only human, you let your emotions get the best of you. It happens to the best of us."
Sighing and gazing back out the window, Remus shook his head. "I wish I was only human."
The next day, Severus came to Lily, wearing long sleeves and high shirt collars to hide his bruises. He seemed like he desperately needed a friend, though he wouldn't tell her why. She smiled and listened as he talked about anything that seemed important. Anything that would help him forget the night before. With her hand, the one she hadn't bitten last night, she lightly touched his to calm him. It hurt to see him hurting inwardly. It hurt to see him flinch when Remus neared. It hurt when she remembered how much she had enjoyed watching, sometimes slipping her hand back into her panties to relive the moment in her head.
What really hurt the most was that things could never be the same.