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That sounds absolutely terrible. I come from a world where there is an empire that seeks domination and uses magic essentially to control monsters for parts of their military. The other major part of their military is soulless shells with the only desire to kill.
You're not wrong, no matter where you come from, where you go... there are those who wish to see the world burn or garner an edge over others for their own gain.
I personally fought not for myself, but to protect those who could not protect themselves and to pave a path forward for those who wanted to see a brighter future.
That is what I died fighting for, and would do again.
On a brighter statement. I have looked but not indulged.