Theo closed his eyes and leaned into Gilmore, then pulled back. "All right." He let Gilmore take his hand, lead him to the table with the spellbook and future flying broom. "I did. They're...lovely." That was true. Theo had liked them and had been glad of the conversation, even if it had led to his current panic spiral. That wasn't J'Mon's fault. "We...do have a tendency to get distracted when we're together." Long conversations about magical theory, adventures with pirates, modeling new clothes, flying brooms. There had never been a lull in their afternoons together.
"Your future. I...understand, I think." Theo supposed that explained the home comment J'Mon had made, and it was clear that the two of them cared for each other very much. "I think you're selling yourself short. You...deserve everything good." Even if Theo was upset with Gilmore, he thought that. Gilmore was one of the best people he'd ever met, and it made him sad to think that the man didn't think he deserved J'Mon in whatever future they had. "They said they hoped you thought of them as home, so whatever you feel, they feel it too I think."
He smiled a bit as his fingers ran over Gilmore's beard. He loved the feel of it--scratchy, but soft. Luxurious, was a good way to describe it. He'd wanted to feel that beard other places too when he'd let himself think about Gilmore in more explicit terms. Was that still an option? From the way Gilmore was talking, it might be, but then what about his relationship with J'Mon? He felt like he was still missing something big about the whole situation.
"I want to know you too. We don't know how long we have here and...I don't want to miss out on knowing you. Experiencing whatever we could have together." Whatever direction their relationship too, Theo knew he didn't want to lose Gilmore's friendship. They'd known each other for such a short time, but he already felt he could trust the older man. That was a new feeling for him, trusting someone so quickly. "I don't know if hurt is the right word. Confused. I'm...not very experienced with...this. Romance, flirting, relationships. If you're involved with J'Mon, I don't want to come between you."