Douchebag parent? Did he really just refer to their father as a douchebag parent? Dean tensed at the mention of such a thing and he fell silent. If it had been Sam, he would have already flown off the handle, but, this was Adam. He didn't know everything there was to know about John and the situation as a whole. "I don't know what you're talking about." He stated calmy, his voice a little deeper than usual.
"Do you even know what he went through? Why he did what he did? Yeah, sure, the guy could be a total asshole, I'll give you that." Dean knew better than anyone that John hadn't been perfect, that he had a dark side. Dean knew that even before the incident his dad hadn't been father of the year. It was always Mary that held the family together and, when she was gone, everything changed. His father had been overcome with rage and vengeance over the death of his wife. He'd had no idea that Mary's death had been written in the cars for years prior, that she had made a deal with Azazel.
"Our father was a good man and I'm sorry that you only saw him occasionally. But, when you did see him? He took you out to ballgames and shit like that, which was something Sammy and I never got. In the end, my father died to save me. Sure, he never said he loved us, or that he was proud of me, and he-" his voice broke and he dropped his head to stare down at the table in front of him. "God and our father? They are not even remotely the same. All of this, every little thing that happened in our life, it was all orchestrated by God. He wrote fucking books about us, shared our lives to the entire world. Our fates were sealed before we had even been born."
His eyes closed and he inhaled deeply, fighting back the tears as his mind replayed memories from the last fourteen years or so. "My mom was a hunter, and the Winchesters? Legacies in the men of letters, only, our grandfather ended up dying and my father never knew. He lived his life thinking that his father had abandoned him, and that was never the case, but he didn't live long enough to find out. Our father cared about us way more than God ever did about his children. So please, don't ever compare him to God. Understood?"