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Wesley Wyndam-Pryce (inperpetuity) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2011-03-02 19:28:00

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wesley wyndam-pryce, winifred burkle

Who: Wesley Wyndam-Pryce and Winifred Burkle.
What: Moving in, a question, and an answer.
Where: Their flat.
When: Backdated to February 23.
Rating: TBD.
Status: In progress.

"I think that's just about it," Wes told Fred with a smile as they got the last of her things moved in to his flat. The one good thing about being kidnapped to a strange planet was that moving was a relatively simple process. Aside from clothes, most people had very few personal effects until they got settled and found jobs. It was nice really, not having to worry about an excess of material possessions. Simpler.

Unlike most people, he had no desire to return home. Home meant death and losing Fred all over again. He couldn't handle that. No, he was perfectly content to remain here with his friends, Lindsey's presence in the city aside. He had work here and the people he cared about, and that was more than enough.

Speaking of, he turned to look at Fred, smiling fondly to himself. "I guess now would be as good a time as any to bring up that question I wanted to ask you," he said after a moment, feeling a nervous thrill of anticipation as he spoke. He only hoped that he hadn't been misreading the situation.

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ur_evitable
2011-03-06 08:17 pm UTC (link)

This was right.

Fred knew it was probably too soon to think such a thing, but she couldn't help the way she felt. When she arrived in Colligo, she was so confused. Timelines were different, the dead were alive, and all she could think about was Pylea. Her friends, Wesley---they kept her grounded. But the marriages kept her separated from them a lot, and she felt herself drifting away again.

But knowing that she and Wesley were going to be together from now on, that he was never more than a room away from her---it made the city survivable. No. It was more than that. It was like being complete. It didn't matter where she was, as long as her other half was with her.

"I guess now would be as good a time as any to bring up that question I wanted to ask you."

Fred had been rummaging through one of her (few) boxes, when he spoke of the question he wanted to ask her. She stopped, looking up at him and smiling, "All right. I'm all ears. ...Well, not really, 'cuz that would just be weird. Come to think of it, I think we fought a demon with multiple sets of ears..."

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inperpetuity
2011-03-10 08:30 am UTC (link)

Wes couldn't suppress his smile at Fred's response. He'd always been utterly charmed by the things she would say, and this was no different. It was silly and adorable and he loved it about her. "I'm certain you would be lovely, even if you were all ears," he said with a smile. "And I remember that Demon. Very good sense of hearing, but it didn't do it much good."

Right. He had a question. An important question. He suddenly felt terribly nervous, and he almost chickened out, but he knew he needed to do this. He wanted to do this. He was just worried the answer would be no, and then he'd feel like a complete idiot.

"See...the thing is..." He trailed off, sighing and starting over. "I love you, Fred...more than I've ever cared about anyone. And these past two weeks have been...dreadful really. Because every morning when I woke up, it was with someone else. And not you. And I wanted it to be you...and it made me realise a few things. I always want it to be you. I never want it to be anyone else."

He took a breath to steady himself, then took her hand in his. "What I mean is...I know it's soon, maybe too soon. And I know this might make me seem completely insane. But we don't know how much time we have. And I don't want to waste any of the time we do have. So what I wanted to ask is...would you consider...that is...will you marry me, Fred?"

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ur_evitable
2011-03-16 01:28 am UTC (link)

Fred's smile turned into a sheepish grin as she pushed back her hair behind her ear, "I bet you say that to all the girls..."

Wesley started to speak, and she could see how nervous he was about asking her this question. She gently placed her hand on his cheek, rubbing it softly, "I love you, too. And I feel the same way. Being apart from you... it was like being incomplete. Like I had this giant hole in me, and I could feel it and see it, and so could everyone else. And we're here now...together... and I'm Fred again. No assembly required."

Fred's eyes widened, and she felt so many different emotions pass through her: love, excitement, confusion, worry. One question, and she had so many different answers. They all started to stumble out at once, "Oh, Wesley... I love you so much.... But we've only just started...and I thought moving in together was a big step, and ... What about home? Getting married with everyone there---Angel, and Charles, and my parents... And why are you so worried about time? We're going to make it back, right? Both of us---together?"

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inperpetuity
2011-03-24 03:59 pm UTC (link)

Wes laughed. As if there was any girl for him but Fred. "Just the very pretty, utterly brilliant ones," he assured her. "So really...just you."

Incomplete. A hole inside her. It made him think of Illyria, and for a moment his stomach dropped. He didn't want to think about that time, not when he had Fred perfect and whole in front of him. More whole than he himself will ever be.

He didn't want her to ask that. But of course she would. Fred was clever and inquisitive and of course she would ask that. His mind again went to that time when he'd been without her. When he'd been so lost and broken and alone. "There's nothing I would want more than to be able to marry you back home, with your family there," he told her softly. "But that will never happen." He closed his eyes and took a deep breath to calm himself. "You died Fred. When I'm from, you're dead. And it killed me to lose you. And now you're here...and I don't know if I could do that again. There isn't any future for us back home, but there could be here."

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ur_evitable
2011-04-01 11:57 pm UTC (link)

Wesley was doing it again. Fred would say or do something and, for a moment, he drifted away. Something horrible and sad consumed him, and he looked as if the entire world had crumbled at his feet (which, in their line of business, was very possible). But, as quickly as the moment came, it passed. They locked eyes, and he was Wesley again. And as much as it scared her, as much as she hated seeing him in any pain, she didn't want to push him on the subject. She knew that he would tell her when he was ready.

"...There isn't any future for us back home, but there could be here."

At first, Fred didn't move. She just stared at Wesley, a confused look on her face. She didn't hear him right. She couldn't have... She collapsed into a heap on the floor, tears in her eyes.

"Oh, God...How is that... But we just started. Everything just started. I built a whole new life for myself... It's not fair... We just started...."

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inperpetuity
2011-04-12 03:12 am UTC (link)

Wesley hated that he had upset her. Fred was the one person he never wanted to hurt, and it seemed like lately that was all he did. He made her worry and he upset her and he couldn't seem to do anything right when it came to her or them. He wished he hadn't had to tell her the truth, but he couldn't bring himself to lie to her. It felt so wrong, and he just couldn't do it. She meant too much to him, and he respected her too much, to be less than honest now. Especially considering what had happened in the past when he had tried to keep things from her. He felt a stab of pain at the thought of Connor, how badly he had failed both the boy and Angel, but he pushed that aside.

"It isn't fair," he agreed softly, sitting next to her and carefully wrapping his arm around her. "We should have had more time, but we didn't. And...nothing can change that." He sighed. "But we have another chance here, and I don't want to waste it." He pulled her closer, hoping to comfort her at least a little. "What happens there doesn't matter, because we're here and we are together."

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ur_evitable
2011-04-12 03:42 am UTC (link)

Tears slid down Fred's face, a dazed look in her eyes, "But it does matter. We always go back... It always ends the same..." Her mind was reeling. There were so many questions she wanted to ask Wesley, so many things she wanted to say, but she just couldn't get the words out. It was too much.

The idea of leaving behind her guys: Angel, Charles, Spike, Wesley...She wouldn't get to work alongside them anymore, she wouldn't be a part of the team. Her family. ...Her family. Oh, God. Her parents. After she was lost for so long, so far away, and now this. They didn't deserve it. And Wesley. They were supposed to be something great, something amazing...

Finally, limp in Wesley's arms, Fred simply asked, "How did it happen?"

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