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Aziraphale (neversellsbooks) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2009-11-24 23:12:00

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WHO: Aziraphale and Crowley.
WHAT: Couple-y time. Discussing Zachariah.
WHEN: Evening.
WHERE: Their flat.
RATING: TBD.
STATUS: In Progress.

Aziraphale was lying on his side of the bed, reading a copy of the Commedia. Though scholars insisted that no original manuscripts of Dante's work survived, Aziraphale would have to disagree. He was, after all, reading from one just then. It wasn't his normal cup of tea, and by this he did not refer to the cup of tea on the nightstand so much as the figurative meaning of the phrase, but talking to his brother had made him uneasy and upset. He was secure in the knowledge that he was not going to fall, and that God allowed his relationship with Crowley, but his brother's scorn still made him feel uncomfortable. But then, he supposed that this was the role of family.

He sighed and set aside the book, closing his eyes. "It does not matter to me what he thinks," he said, as if it even needed to be said, "I had just forgotten that there are those who do not find it so easy to accept us...how I feel for you." Castiel and Anna, his dearest brother and sister, made it so easy. They were remarkably understanding, and did not pass judgment. And his Father accepted them, while the Metatron didn't seem to care either way. But most angels would not be so accepting. And he knew that. Still, there was a difference between knowing and experiencing. "But it does not change my feelings...just as I hope yours would not change, were Hastur or Ligur here to disapprove."

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ex_saunterva47
2009-11-25 06:44 am UTC (link)

Crowley groaned a bit as he walked towards the bed, planning on stretching out for a while. "Well that's good then," he said simply as he slipped under the covers. "But I think you also forgot that he can be his own breed of git at times. I'd forgotten just how irritating he was, but I haven't seen him in a while." That was quite the understatement, being as it had been several thousand years since the last time he was around Zachariah.

At the mention of Crowley's fellow demons, however, he rolled his slitted eyes, for once not covered by sunglasses. "Of course they would disapprove, angel. They're demons. But no, they wouldn't influence me, and you know it."

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neversellsbooks
2009-11-25 08:33 am UTC (link)

Aziraphale gave a sigh of frustration. "He is my brother," he reminded Crowley. "And he was once yours." He didn't much like to think about how Crowley was technically his brother. Though it did not mean the same thing as it did for humanity, for incest was not really a concern of the Host, it was still somewhat awkward to consider when put in human terms. "Even if he is something of an arrogant, self-important prat," he finally added, feeling somewhat embarrassed by the sheer strength of his annoyance toward his brother.

"Good," Aziraphale said with a shy smile at Crowley's assertion, "I am quite fond of you, as you well know, and I should hate for this to end." He paused. "I know you are...frustrated." And he did feel very bad about that. But that side of things still made him distinctly uncomfortable.

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ex_saunterva47
2009-11-25 09:19 am UTC (link)

"You know, I really do like it when I hear you insult others, Zira. Especially angels," he said, a smirk tugging at the corners of his lips. "But I'll admit, that wasn't so much of an insult as it was the truth."

Crowley rolled onto his side then, draping his arm over Aziraphale's waist in the process. "As am I, which is the only reason I put up with my own frustration, as you put it. Which, by the way, you don't really know all that much about being as you haven't been able to put yourself through the effort just yet." The demon didn't sound bitter when he said that, he only sounded like he was stating a fact. It was just one of the many things that irritated him about his angel that he had come to accept. Plus, he was sure that one of these days he was bound to wear him down.

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neversellsbooks
2009-11-30 05:54 am UTC (link)

"You really are a terrible influence on me, my dear," Aziraphale said with a small smile. He was hardly complaining on that count. "There was a time when I never would have said such things." Thought them, yes, but never said them.

Crowley's touch served to calm him, and he shifted closer without even thinking about it, until he was pressed against the demon. It wasn't snuggling, because they didn't snuggle...or so Crowley insisted. Aziraphale personally thought that they did, but he wasn't going to argue the point. "I..." he closed his eyes and took a steadying breath, "could try." He was nervous, but talking to Zachariah had helped him realise that he couldn't allow the narrow-minded members of his brethren to control what he did with his life. His Father approved of them, and that was enough.

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ex_saunterva47
2009-12-02 06:50 am UTC (link)

Crowley's smirk grew a bit more. "I don't mind being a bad influence on you, angel. In the long run, it ends up amusing me when you slip up a bit."

But at the next part, Crowley couldn't help but be a bit surprised. He thought that it would have taken a lot longer before Aziraphale decided to try to make the effort, and he was actually prepared to wait around. Not that he would have admitted that to the angel, but he would have waited none the less. "Really?" he asked, the bit of shock apparent on his face as he wasn't bothering trying to hide it. "Well, that was quick." And for them it certainly was. Just a few days earlier Zira had been saying no and, if Crowley remembered correctly, rolling his eyes a bit.

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neversellsbooks
2009-12-02 07:02 am UTC (link)

"But not too bad an influence," Aziraphale said with a fond smile. "You would hate it if I Fell." He knew, because Crowley hadn't exactly reacted favourably when he had Fallen that one time.

Aziraphale looked down, flushing slightly. "I've been thinking about it," he admitted. "And it's never been that I don't want to...it's just...I was afraid that if I did...I was afraid of Falling...and I realise it's ridiculous to you, but I couldn't help feeling that way. But now...I realise that it's silly. My Father has already given His blessing...and the only ones who oppose are the same ones who go against God's will...so, why shouldn't I be with you like this? I love you...and love isn't a sin. This is just...another expression of that."

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ex_saunterva47
2009-12-02 07:32 am UTC (link)

"You're right about that," Crowley said with a soft sigh, "I would hate it. It was extremely strange seeing you as a demon and I would rather you didn't do that again."

"I didn't know you'd been putting so much thought into it," Crowley said, simply and honestly. He wasn't sure how, but Aziraphale was still able to surprise him every so often even though they had known each other as long as they had. "No, it's not a sin. I know that, plus I hear you say it all the time. It does seem to be your favorite reply when you go and defend our relationship." He didn't even really realize he'd just called what they shared a relationship, it was just something that slipped out. But none the less, he was grinning instead of his usual smirking. "So you're honestly willing to try?" Not that the angel would lie about something like that.

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