"I never thought, or dreamed, or hoped I would have someone as wonderful as you." He didn't tell him what Lucien had always seen for the end of his life, broken and alone. At least he was not alone anymore.
"I still don't feel like I deserve you. You are too special for me. You should be with someone equally as special, not me." He stroked his face and then kissed his lips. "I just want what you see. I want to be this perfect Lucien for my perfect Nate. But we both know what I am really good at, it has all I have been good at or for." he licked his lips. "Even earlier when you would not fuck me, I just could not see why you did just jump too it, you know?"