"My alpha can never know. It is different to let someone, you only know in passing, but to have your alpha give out the punishment, how could I ever face them again. No." He shook his head. This was something that had to happen outside the pack.
He knew he should be scared of the punishment to come, even as Carrick spelled it out, but all he wanted was relief from the guilt that wanted to swallow him up. He could take anything, he was a werewolf after all, he would heel up and the pain would be worth it. He just wondered if he could take the humiliation of being punished.
"And I thank you, for keeping this between us." He nodded to Carrick and stood up. "Shall we get this started? I don't want to leave Jenn out in the car for too long. She has had a hard day and needs some rest in somewhere other than the car."