He listened to what Emrys said, ever word was like another sharp knife to his heart. Then the tears, the tears Emrys would not allow him to see. It all killed him, made him want to crawl and beg for forgiveness.
"Yes, I realize now that I was wrong. In fact ten minutes after you left I realized I was wrong and that I screwed up everything between us. I know you don't want to hear my side, since I didn't listen to yours, but the last song I played on that violin was for my mother, a few days before she was killed. I have not played on it for years and now I open it to see a string broken and I lost it." He stepped into the room.
"With everything that happened with Carrick and now my violin I could not think straight. And I punished you, I punished you for something that I now know you did not do, but all the 'I'm sorrys' in the world can not undo what I did to you." he came over and knelt down before Emrys. "I am worse than him." Even thought it had hurt to hear it he knew it was true. "I hurt you, saying things I would have never said if I had not been in my right mind." He wanted to reach out and take Emrys hands and brush off his tears.
"When Alice was here and you were so afraid of me, I didn't know want to do. I almost cried, I have not had that much emotion in me in years. I have never wanted to hurt you, I love you. Remember when I said that?" He asked. "When you became mine? Now I don't know what to do. I can not be some heartless master and tell you to tough up, I can't. I want things to go back to way they where, but it can never. I crossed a line I never thought I would." Mir sighed. "Please look at me, Emrys. I need to see them, I have missed the way you look at me and your voice. I don't care if your eyes are filled with angry or resentment, I need to see them."