"I let it happen, you didn't make me do it, I didn't think there was anything to get ready for." She frowned, chewing on her bottom lip, completely unsure of exactly what to say to make this better. Whether it was his fault, her fault, or neither of their faults, things just kept going wrong for them lately. It made her need to choose worse.
"I didn't... see it as anything other than something I wanted to do, and then..." She trailed, shaking her head. "I'm not making sense, I know."