He nodded, a slightly miserable look on his face as he waited for the verdict. He let out a breath he hadn't realized he was holding when Patrick spoke again. He nodded, a little lighter now. "yeah, I mean, I accepted a long time ago that he's never going to be interested in me like that and what happened was because of a lot of drinking and him almost getting me killed" he said, a twitch of a smile around his lips, slightly nervous.