Sebastian Daley (reveredvalley) wrote in changedrpg, @ 2011-12-08 21:30:00 |
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Entry tags: | !date: 1997 - december, hestia carrow, sebastian daley |
To: Hestia Carrow
From: Sebastian Daley
Hestia,
I realize letters are stupid, and that it's not a very interpersonal way to communicate. But, I suppose I'm writing it because I'm too afraid to actually say this to you face to face.
I haven't been a very good person for a while now and I've done a thousand things wrong by you and a few other people. I guess, the truth of the matter is that I find you an amazing person. You're beautiful, talented and you certainly aren't deserving of me because of what I've done.
I've been stealing away for several weeks now with someone else. Another girl. I won't say her name because it isn't important. But, I've come to realize that I've done wrong by you and her. And I'm coming clean with it. Everytime I'm not with you, I'm usually with her. And.. I realize that it's just hurting both of you. Saying I'm sorry can't fix anything, but I am sorry. I am, a thousand times and more. I'm an asshole, I know. I'm sorry.
I'm not asking you to forgive me. Or to stay with me, or do anything other than understand that I've messed up a lot of things. In fact, I don't even think we should stay together.. because I'm not right for you. I'm not hiding from you anymore, because you deserve better. You deserve my honesty. So, here it is. I'll be in that classroom we were in on the 5th of December, if you want to talk. Or to hit me or curse me or whatever. I'm not going to avoid you, that's stupid. And I can.. I need to accept consequences.
- Sebastian