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Stiles Stilinski: Letter (Plot)
(JUNE 8: People feel the need to write a letter telling their best friend a deep secret. The person does not need to be in game!)



Hey Scotty

I don’t think we’ve ever gone this long without seeing each other. Not since that time you got the chicken pox and your mom wouldn’t let me visit. And maybe this is it. Seems like it might be, this time. Like I’m really not going to see you again. If I think about that too hard it feels like I might have a panic attack, so I’ve basically been ignoring it. I’ve got friends here. I’m not alone. But sometimes it really feels like I am. Maybe it’s just missing everyone that's doing it. God I miss my dad.

You’re looking after him right? Who am I kidding, none of you probably even know I’m gone. There’s some other version of me there. Pod-Stiles living my life and feeding my dad vegetables and not letting him eat red meat more than once a week.

He better not be eating bacon.

A lot has happened to me since I wound up here. Lydia was here for a while. We were living together and everything, man. Fourteen year old me would have freaked. Then you showed up. But you weren’t here very long either. I don’t know what it is about me that means no one stays but I’m scared shitless the same thing’s going to happen to the other people I care about. Like I’ll wake up one day and Alex will be gone.

Oh, yeah. I have a boyfriend now, I guess. Surprise. Something else I’d really love to be able to talk to you about because I have zero idea what the hell I’m doing, dude. At some point he’ll have to figure out it’s a terrible idea, right? He and the band are like freaking Disney princesses, and Alex is such a good person. Maybe that’s why it works. Like you and me. Opposites or whatever, I don’t know. I'm no good at this stuff. I really like him, though.

I have no idea why I’m actually writing you a letter, but I couldn’t get the idea out of my head so here I am. I keep thinking about that day Aiden and Lydia found me and brought me back to your place. When Deaton put the tape over my mouth to shut the Nogitsune up. I guess you have no idea how loud I was screaming inside my own head.

Anyway, when your mom was doing her nurse thing it tricked her. Convinced her I was the one crying so she’d let usit speak. It told her about how I knew about the day she made your dad leave. She called my dad and told him what happened. I heard everything, because I was listening in.

I know you know what happened now. You told me he told you how he knocked you down the stairs, and how it was an accident or whatever bullshit line he used to make up for being drunk. Because we swore we’d always tell each other everything. I think this is the one thing I never did tell you. I think because I knew how much it would make you hate your mom, back then. And I couldn’t do it. I wanted to protect you.

That was when I started to hate your dad. You know, until he saved my life a couple of times. Even if the first time I was thinking that maybe he shouldn’t have. Okay maybe there’s two things I never told you.

Anyway. Now you know. Even if you’ll probably never see this because Beacon Hills doesn’t exist in this universe so where would I even send it?

I really miss you, buddy.

Stiles.