Celandine's Chronicle (celandineb) wrote in cels_fic_haven, @ 2012-02-17 13:31:00 |
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Entry tags: | hp ficlets draco/harry, hp ficlets harry/lucius, hp quill-it 100.3 |
HP ficlet: Scylla and Charybdis [Harry/Lucius, Draco/Harry, general]
Title: Scylla and Charybdis
Author: celandineb
Fandom: HP
Pairing: Harry/Lucius, Draco/Harry
Rating: general
Length: 521 words
Warnings: references to infidelity
Summary: Harry wants them both.
Note: For quill_it, 100.3, prompt 65, "and". Part of the H/L, D/H series.
I suppose, when it comes right down to it, that I'm greedy. I want to have Draco, and I want to have Lucius.
Draco... It's hard to explain what he means to me. We were enemies for so long. Our mutual suspicion led to my obsession with him in our sixth year at Hogwarts, and eventually that obsession developed into fascination of a more positive kind. Maybe some of my feeling comes from Dumbledore's insistence that love will win out every time. There's also the fact that I happen to find him bloody attractive.
As for Lucius, I freely admit that I started the affair with him purely because I thought I could learn a lot about sex. He's older, obviously, but he and Draco strongly resemble each other, so that was a plus. I can't deny that the idea of having an old antagonist more or less at my command -- even when he tops, we both know that he was the one who originally offered to do whatever I wanted, as recompense for saving his son -- is more than a little appealing.
I'd like, that is I think I'd like, to have things be serious between Draco and me. Like, let's-make-this-permanent serious. It's a bit early for that really, but maybe for once I'm thinking ahead. Lucius, on the other hand, I don't think I would want to marry, even if he didn't already have a wife. Not because of his age! If nothing else being with him has taught me how little that means.
Nor is it even because he used to be a Death Eater. We've had a few conversations about that little issue, seeing as how we can't have sex </i>all</i> the time that we spend together, and I'm convinced that his change of heart is genuine. He's never going to go out of his way to be friends with non-purebloods, but he acknowledges that it's the ability to do magic that matters, not who one's parents were... and that's a big step. I'm not planning to hold my breath for Lucius to realise that even magical ability is not that important, given that probably ninety-eight percent of the wizarding world would agree with him on that one.
The question then becomes whether and how I can keep both Lucius and Draco in my life. I'd be an idiot to think I could do it and keep the fact secret from them both. Sooner or later I would call one of them by the other's name accidentally... or worse. So I'll have to tell them.
How do you tell your lover that you're also fucking his father? Or his son? Somehow I don't think this is covered in any etiquette guide. And they'll both have to go along with the idea, or it will be impossible. If one of them doesn't agree, then I'll have to choose. Choose between them, or give them both up.
Facing Voldemort almost seems easy compared with this. At least then I had help from Ron and Hermione and a whole lot of other people. For this one, I'm on my own.