Lisa bit her lip gently as he seemed to take some time to think. She wanted them to be alright, she really did. She wanted to jump into his arms and snog him senseless, but that would never happen. They still had unresolved issues that had to be resolved.
Hearing his words, she frowned. She couldn't really blame him for being angry with her for running. She was angry with him for not running. Even now, she was. She'd felt so much guilt for leaving without him. When she'd contacted Mandy and found out that Mandy hadn't even heard from him, the guilt only magnified. Now that she was seeing him, the guilt was still there. She just wanted it to go away.
"I don't know what I want, Terry," she answered softly. "Leaving things the way we did... I don't even know where we stand anymore. I left because I didn't think it was safe for mum and I to stay. I even tried to get dad to come along, but he wouldn't. He was afraid he and mum would argue too much. I wanted you to come because I couldn't bear the thought of losing you. I guess now... I just want to know if I did anyway."
She was trying hard not to cry. The problem was, she was an emotional girl. She just liked to keep it hidden. She guarded her emotions heavily, even around Terry and Mandy. Now, however, after laying it all out for him, it was hard. She closed her eyes gently, suddenly feeling very exposed. She might as well have told him she loved him. But that one emotion would remain locked deep inside.