R let out a nigh hysterical giggle as she came running in, looking like there was actually something wrong. He accepted the potion, downed it, and then batted her hands away. "Hey, you're not supposed to do that, don't get in trouble on my account." He finished up the cleaning charms, then did as told, collapsing into a chair and running a hand over his face.
He sighed and shook his head. "I can't, Nari, I can't. I don't know what I was thinking, thinking this was a good idea. She'll see I'm just a fraud, or she'll ask me something and I won't know the answer. Shit, what's chiaroscuro again - " He spotted a book he recognized on a nearby bookcase - he owned a copy himself - and summoned it, opening it over his knees. "The contrast of light and shadow, right, duh, I knew that, shit. I need to calm down." He resisted the urge to run his fingers through his hair since that would only mess it up more and make Nari's job even harder. "I love you, have I told you that recently?"