I don't know what it's like to lose somebody. They told me my family is dead, but I can't remeb
I also didn't know what it was like to be the one lost, or the pain it causes.
I don't know how anyone felt when I was gone. Because I'm a muggleborn and an orphan, I assumed nobody gave much of a shit when I was dead. But I really don't know how close I was to anyone, because I convinced myself it was better not knowing. It was easier to think that I could ignore the past and move on, so I didn't even consider the other end of it.
Recent tragedy made me realize that maybe I've been an asshole. Look, I'm sorry. I'm relearning how to be a person and I know I'm doing a lot wrong.
If you were my friend before, it's... still overwhelming. I can't handle it all at once. But if you want to say hello and reintroduce yourself, I'm okay. Just don't touch me.