I don't know how it's supposed to work either. I don't know if I'm going to ever remember. I don't know how much I want to remember. I just know I'm a bit different now, and I want to be allowed to be instead of people telling me what I'm supposed to be. Who I'm supposed to know and be friends with. Maybe something small would be okay.
But I know I'm hurting others, and I don't... I know it's not fair.