Jin Superman (369) wrote in candypop, @ 2008-03-15 03:39:00 |
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15th of March 2007, Jin and Yui - Part 2
When had the room gotten so hot? The air felt like it was on fire now, and so -close- like it was pressing in on them... Yui knew that it wasn't, she knew that air couldn't really do that but there was no room in her mind for things that made sense anymore. Just... this was so amazing. She couldn't have said what about it was amazing or why she thought that it was, but somehow it just really -was- and suddenly the idea of him stopping what he was doing seemed insane. He couldn't do that, not now; no matter how nervous she still was, even though the butterflies still flew about in her stomach it was just -different- now.
And there was no way that she'd be able to stay still anymore either. She didn't move much, more fidgeting and squirming slightly than anything else, but it was still more than before at any rate. It was so difficult to get enough air now - she wouldn't break the kiss, not yet, but as her breaths came deeper and faster it was harder to keep up with her nose alone.
Jin eventually broke the kiss though and instead continued down her neck. It was getting more difficult to breathe though, it was... it was as if everything Yui did, everything he did to Yui, as if he felt it too. That wasn't possible, he knew that but... but...
Even though he didn't want to, Jin eventually pulled back his hand and even went so far as to sit up on his knees. Maybe he was still acting too quickly? Maybe she wanted more of that before they moved on... and he wanted to listen to that, would she say so he would definitely listen to it but as it was right -now- he couldn't take this anymore. He couldn't -not- go further.
"Yui...," he breathed, for no real reason at all, before he backed up a bit and leaned forward to kiss her stomach. He wouldn't just undress her without doing anything, that would be awkward. But pulling her underwear down while doing this..? That surely had to be okay.
Once he'd moved, she'd taken her hands from his shoulders and instead took hold of the bedcover underneath her; not clutching at it but nevertheless finding some comfort in having something she could hold onto at any point and not have to worry about hurting anyone. It almost felt at this point as though this was her last chance to say no, to decide that she really didn't want to go through with this after all. Going over it in her mind quickly, Yui made herself really think about it since it was a pretty serious thing - but at this point all signs pointed to just getting on with it. Not the impulsive kind that she somehow knew she'd regret in the morning, either.
"Jin...," she mumbled as though in reply, though not having made a conscious decision to do so. This was it, she thought. She was really going to... to...
When she said his name like that, Jin had to look up. Look at her, look at the face she was making, take notice in every little thing... She was so amazingly beautiful. When standing up normally, when she greeted him at restaurants, when blushing... When being like this. Even though the bedroom was lit down he thought he could see her so clearly, as if his eyes made sure he could see her when he needed and wanted to. Maybe that was silly.
Jin slowly let his kisses continue down and once he reached her thigh he actually considered to... well, stay like that for a while. Though, as much as he could be selfless there was no way he'd be able to do that right now. He needed this too much, he needed -her- too much. He'd have to save that for some other time.
He helped her off with the underwear so they fell down to the floor and then even went so far as to sit on the edge and with that move away from her quite a lot so that he could get undressed himself. Normally he'd ask the girl to fix this whole condom thing, for some reason it was a bit exciting when the girl did it but right now he didn't want to - not now, not their first time and not when he wanted it to happen so quickly. It was because of that only a couple of seconds passed before Jin again found himself over Yui, having one leg between hers -this- close to just -do- it already. It was good he had some selfcontrol because there were simply no words that would be able to explain just how horny he was right now, how much he wanted to -enter- her, how much he...
"Is...," he breathed as he placed quick kisses on her neck just to be doing something. It was so difficult to breathe properly right now. "Are... you sure...?"
Okay so he didn't want to ask that. He didn't want to ask if she was -sure- because what if she wasn't? What if she would just say no and they would end up not doing it? She wouldn't really do that though, would she? She couldn't...!
One of Yui's hands, balled into a fist, rested on her navel as though trying to pull down the shirt she wasn't even wearing anymore to cover herself. Of course he'd ask, she realised - that was so like him, keeping her in mind even when...
Wow. That hadn't occurred to her - or if it had she'd hardly realised it. He had to be really... wanting this to happen by now, didn't he? This wouldn't work if he didn't, and it certainly -sounded- like he did - surely they would never have gotten this far otherwise. Which meant that not only would she be disappointing herself to turn back now, she'd be taking something from him that up until now she'd pretty much acted as though she was okay with giving. Something he wanted. No way she was that cruel.
Words wouldn't come to her right now. She was scared, of course she was, but even so she couldn't deny that she was pretty excited by now. The room still felt so hot and the air was so close, like it was trying to keep her short of breath on purpose. One thing she could still do was nod though, and she did without a second thought; though kept her eyes closed, this time more to brace herself than anything else.
It would hurt for her. He had to be careful. He had to be really careful but even so not make it go too slow because that would probably only hurt more. And he had to make it good for both of them. But no matter how willing she was it would still hurt for her...
There were so many things to think of and had this been in any other situation Jin would have said out loud that he was beyond confused right now. He wasn't really -confused- though... he just had to be careful. And he careful he would be. Maybe it was noticeable even in the way he moved; how he moved to lay a bit more on top of her, to carefully take away her hand where she had it and then move so that her legs were on both of his sides.
Jin tried to be careful, he really tried to be (and hopefully he was) as he slowly pushed forward and with that slightly laid down over her again. He grabbed the bedcover under them and closed his eyes as he lowered his head slightly. How was she? Was she okay? Did it hurt? Could he -move-?
Yui wasn't sure what she'd expected, but as most things go this still managed to surprise her. She'd known as pretty much all girls do by this age that it would hurt - but either it hurt more than they said or she just hadn't sufficiently prepared herself because she found herself having to try -really- hard not to scream. There was no way she could possibly swallow all of it, but she succeeded to some extent and all that ended up coming out was a sort of choked yelp.
All she could think of was that it hurt. It hurt a -lot-, it hurt so much that it seemed impossible that anything good could come of it... surely this couldn't last? She knew herself, she knew that there wasn't much of this she could actually take - but Jin wouldn't get her to do something as important as this unless he thought there was something in it for her, right? Yui knew very well that it was -supposed- to get better, of course she did, but how this was supposed to turn into anything good she didn't know.
Since he knew that there was no way that Yui would be able to actually answer his questions, Jin slowly opened his eyes to look down at her. Though once he did he almost wished that he hadn't; her expression showed so clearly just how much it'd hurt. Her eyes were closed really hard and if he didn't know better he could almost be sure of that her eyelashes were wet. Didn't that mean that she cried? The guilt that suddenly came over him was almost too much to bear with, it was -a lot- but he did, of course, he had to... wasn't as if he could do this to her and then just...
"Sorry...," he whispered as he leaned down to kiss her cheek and from there continue down to her neck. Now in a more careful way than he had before, before it had been all about -wanting- to get where he was right now but now... He didn't want to go back in time or anything though, definitely not but...
"Relax..." How much did it hurt anyway? Was it -really- much? Like how it had hurt for him when he had been with a guy for the first time but that was... different so he really didn't know. He had absolutely -no- idea... That kind of sucked.
She wanted to relax, of course she did. She wanted to enjoy this like it seemed as though everybody else did. But it was so hard, it seemed really impossible - how was she supposed to know how to do it? In her mind it sounded so easy, she'd never really thought about having to do it because it had always seemed like something that just -happened- with ease when it had to... The reality of the situation was much different, which of course she'd realised now.
Forcing herself to open her eyes had Yui realise that everything was slightly blurred. That couldn't be tears in her eyes, could it? Though as one escaped and ran across her nose she couldn't really deny it. He'd said sorry though - that meant he felt guilty about it or something? No, that was no good, he shouldn't be feeling -guilty- of all things right now... Through some great effort of will she made herself smile weakly. He probably couldn't see it from there but she felt a little better for it. "Hurts...," she mumbled, something about her tone saying that she was on her way to getting used to it even if she hadn't yet.
Jin hummed in reply and nodded slightly as he carefully, very carefully started to move. He knew it wasn't going to get better (or well, he assumed so) if he was just still. If so she would just get used to that and then it would hurt when he -did- move, right?
"I know...," he continued then and continued to kiss her but stopped as he reached her collarbone and instead let his forehead rest against her shoulder as he searched for her left hand with his right. Maybe that would make her feel a bit better. He knew it wouldn't make it hurt any less but maybe she wouldn't... Something. Maybe it would help and besides he liked holding her hand and she didn't seem to mind it.
He wanted to move faster though. Wanted for her to enjoy it, wanted to... well, even if it wasn't for a very sexual reason right -now- (would be later, definitely) he wanted to hear her moan. That would mean she was enjoying it, wouldn't it? It would mean that she wasn't hurting but only enjoyed it... He wanted to hear that for that reason. Also it would be such a turn on (as if he needed more of that) but he didn't think of that right now.
Grasping his hand like a long-awaited lifeline, Yui brought her other one up to her face and bit down on her knuckle. This was it, this was really it - she'd probably remember this for the rest of her life so she knew she had to really try to enjoy it. Who wants painful memories? Especially such important ones... On the bright side, it didn't hurt as much as it had a moment ago anymore. At least it was -getting- better, even if it was pretty slowly. There was definitely something she didn't mind about it too; she didn't know what it -was- or anything, just that by now she could tell that it wasn't all bad. Maybe that meant that it would stop hurting soon?
In her head she'd somehow gotten the impression that it would magically stop hurting completely once she relaxed - of course on an intellectual level she knew that that probably didn't work, but that it would definitely help. So she focused on that, on steadying her breathing and trying not to be so very tense. It was hard, it was really hard but she thought she was at least managing something.
There wasn't much else that Jin could do, was there? He couldn't do much more but to be careful and it kind of sucked, if he was to be honest. He didn't want her to hurt. Didn't want her to cry over this, over something that was supposed to be so awesome. He continued to move though, still not very fast but at least not painfully slow. That she held on to his hand, somehow it felt like a good thing. A good thing because that meant she appreciated it.
Jin's breath was slightly heavy now. It was starting to get a bit difficult to adjust to this slow pace. He didn't need to be really fast, of course not, but this definitely was slower than was he was used to. Just like everything else about this... He didn't usually do that. He hadn't actually been with a girl who hadn't done it before. This didn't mean that he disliked it though, he definitely didn't. He loved the thought of being Yui's first. He loved Yui and everything about her and if he had to be slower than usually then that was okay. But some other parts of him definitely didn't enjoy it as much... hopefully it wouldn't be too long before she'd be okay now. Because it would pass, wouldn't it? It had to.
As Yui was gradually able to relax more she began to realise that this got better the more she did. Like it really worked or something, it really seemed to - and just realising that was a great help. It didn't feel like it would never stop hurting anymore, she'd been frightened of that but it really wasn't all that bad anymore. In fact it was getting to be okay actually...
Taking her finger out of her mouth since she didn't need to be biting on it to control herself anymore, she instead put that hand on Jin's shoulder just to be touching him some more. She'd never been this close to anyone after all, and far from being scary now it was really... alright. Okay so she couldn't call it 'good' or anything like that yet but it really didn't hurt that much at all anymore. She could take this.
The next thing Yui dared to do, just moments later, was to bend her leg some - purely for comfort reasons, but just that small action put her hips at a slightly different angle. How different that tiny movement made things took her by surprise; now she could see it, now she could tell what all the hype was about. God, that was actually really good. Was it supposed to be like that? It was, right?
"Ah!," she gasped, more in surprise than anything else at this stage. Suddenly this was all different, but there was no way she could call it a bad thing. No way.
Jin smiled slightly as he heard that, not even considering to take that as bad thing simply because it couldn't be. This had him speed up a bit too, something he thought he was free to do now that she even went so far as to... -do- things. This was getting really good, by the way. Even if it was slow it was getting faster and she was just so... He could tell she hadn't done this before. It wasn't a bad thing, but...
He wouldn't last long. Right now Jin was pretty sure of that there was no way he'd actually be able to do this for too long but at the same time he wouldn't be able to finish too quickly, not without Yui being able to do the same. That would just be too selfish... Then again she was inexperienced, she probably wouldn't be able to do it for too long either.
As he continued to go faster and faster for each second that passed, Jin's breath got heavier. It wasn't fair that it would affect him like this, it always did. It was getting difficult to think, it was starting to get really difficult to make sense. He wanted to tell her she was good, how she was doing -good- because she was, this was... But even so all that managed to come over his lips was her name. To kiss her would be nice, he really kind of wanted to, but at the same time it seemed to be such an effort to lift his head and focus on that... something that he was sure he wasn't able to do right now.
As she heard her name, Yui swallowed hard, hearing her breathing and her heartbeat in her ears as though they were as loud as drums. Was she supposed to enjoy it this much? Maybe she was going too fast, maybe she was one of those people who finished in a minute like all the magazines talked about - she couldn't do that to him, could she? But no matter how good her intentions were, this was just so -much- almost completely out of nowhere and she knew very well that there was no way she'd be able to hold back. That would be like trying to hold back a tidal wave with an umbrella at this point.
"Jin... Jin...," she mumbled, the word becoming like a mantra, going over and over in her head - she didn't even realise that she was giving voice to it at all, just that it helped.
Was there anything more exciting than hearing your girlfriend say your name like that? Jin didn't really know but if he would have gotten the question randomly he would probably have said something like - having Yui give him a handjob or something would be pretty damn hot. However that was not what he was thinking of right now, because that had been the hottest thing -ever-.
"Yui...," he mumbled in reply then as he turned his head slightly, letting his lips get in contact with her skin in something that would most likely have been a kiss had it not been a bit too quick and too light to be one. How long had this been going on? Too long? Long enough at least. She liked it, and he liked it and everything was just so perfect. Would she be loud? For some reason he wanted her to be, he didn't really know -why- though. Was he being loud? A bit, he was definitely sure of but not too much... he hoped. No, he couldn't be. But it was so good though so it wouldn't really surprise him if he was.
A combination of the act itself and being able to hear that Jin was enjoying it had Yui quickly feeling weak. Like the umbrella against the tidal wave, she couldn't hold up much longer - maybe it would be alright now? If... if not then she had no doubts that he would understand; he'd be disappointed of course which she really didn't want, but it was Jin, so of course he'd understand. Whether or not either of them wanted it to it was going to happen soon though, one could probably start counting down the seconds...
One thing she didn't notice was that she was getting to be a lot louder than she'd expected. There simply wasn't room in her mind for thoughts on controlling her volume right now so it didn't -get- controlled - of course afterwards she'd be horribly embarassed but for now, for this of all moments it didn't matter. Nothing else mattered right now but the two of them.
What would be wonderful would if they'd be able to synch, if they would be able to come at the same time. Though Jin knew very well that it most likely wouldn't happen, maybe once they had done this a couple of times but not the first time. He really didn't want to be the first one though, simply because if he was he knew he barely would have any strength left to continue. To continue and let Yui get there too. So she had to be the first one... really soon. Really, really soon. Because by now it was getting difficult. It was getting -really- difficult to have some sort of control over himself. Not only because it was amazing, but because she was -moaning-. He honestly didn't know if other people (he knew Ryo did though) liked that, but hearing Yui be loud like she was, sounding like she was really enjoying it. Sounding as if she was having a difficult time to -deal- with it because she simply didn't know... Probably it was the most beautiful sound ever. Singing, songs and instruments? Those things were nothing compared to this.
Probably it was noticeable too, that he enjoyed it so much, as he started to move just a little bit faster. He was so close right now, so very close, maybe a bit -too- close. Holding on hard to her hand, Jin kissed Yui's neck another time before actually giving up thinking of other things. Controlling himself. It just couldn't be done anymore.
It was almost as though she heard his thoughts then - his thoughts that she had to finish quickly. When the moment finally came, when the crescendo of everything until now finally built up to its peak, there was nothing in her mind because she simply couldn't think. Her eyes rolling back in her head, every muscle in her body tensed and she was left helplessly clinging to her boyfriend's hand as though he was an anchor and she'd somehow fall off the world if she let go.
The whole thing was so powerful, one thought that did manage to run through her head was wondering if she was going to black out or something. That was possible, she'd heard of it happening - but could something like that really happen to her? It seemed so impossible in theory and yet in practice it felt just seconds away.
Only a few seconds passed then before Jin felt his whole body freeze. It was impossible to stay silent and probably he was being a bit louder than he usually would be but that was, right now, the last thing he was thinking of. Right now he wasn't thinking at all, it wasn't possible to think once you took notice in the feeling of reaching something, getting somewhere you'd wanted to get to for the longest time. There were no words that would be able to explain it.
It felt like forever, but in reality maybe only ten seconds or so passed before Jin felt how he simply couldn't keep himself up anymore and thus laid down on top of Yui, right now not thinking at all about how he might be heavy. Hopefully he wasn't though. While trying to catch his breath, trying to calm down he reminded himself of that he had to tell her, that he had to tell her just how awesome that had been just now. How great she had been, because she had. He hadn't expected anything, really. He hadn't assumed she would be a natural or anything like it, but this... Surely it had to be heaven on earth or something because... because...
While Yui found that having Jin (who was, being older than her, male and decently built, pretty heavy) laying on top of her somewhat impeded her ability to catch her breath, there was no way she'd say so right now. That would... well she got the distinct feeling that saying something that was basically the equivalent of 'oi get off me' would pretty much ruin the mood right now. And to be perfectly honest, she was really liking the mood right now. Something about it, about them laying together after having done something wonderful like that...
Was it strange that she'd be so proud of herself right now? She'd really done it after all, after all that thinking and being scared and avoiding the issue she'd really -done- it... That meant something, or at least it did to her. Right now she felt like, if she just had more energy, she could do anything at all.
Of course Yui didn't want to be the first to speak, but even so, a minute had passed (she had no real way of knowing, but a minute had passed in her mind) and they both seemed to have been able to calm their breathing some - and there was something she really wanted to know. Something she -had- to know. Something that was really important to this whole thing.
"Ne...," she began unsteadily, "yo... yokatta..?"
Jin blinked slightly as he heard her voice, having almost fallen asleep like this, or at least that was what it felt like. It took a little while before he understood what was being asked and once he did a small smile grew on his lips.
"Mhmm," he hummed and even went so far as to nod as he then moved slightly before finally moving off of her. He still didn't think of that maybe that had been too heavy for her, she hadn't complained after all. While Jin was without doubt very tired right now he sort of didn't want to go to sleep just yet. He'd actually love to go and have a shower... with her, if she wanted that. That would be sort of... nice. Also, with not having the same kind of contact anymore it was suddenly really cold.
"Sugokatta," Jin continued as he moved a bit closer and put an arm around her waist. Would it be too hasty to suggest a shower now? Still smiling, he kissed her shoulder a few times. "Hontou ni."
Having the illusion that she was feeling the cold much worse than he was, what with being absolutely tiny in comparison no matter how one looked at it, Yui immediately moved to be slightly closer to Jin. Not that there was ever anything wrong with being close to Jin of course. Just that right now, the main motivation for the action was that it was -freezing- in here. Why hadn't she noticed that before?
"Thankyou...," she muttered, the small words somehow taking on a rather heavy meaning in this context. She was really thankful for that, actually. It had been... amazing. Comparing it to the horror stories she'd heard about awkward first times and nothing but pain so bad that you couldn't even stand up afterwards... there was just no basis for comparison there at all. The two things were worlds apart. And there was no doubt in her mind that she had Jin to thank for that.
Jin only smiled and shook his head in reply as he held her close. If there was someone who was going to say thanks here, shouldn't that be him? At least he thought so... he had been the one who had waited for this for so long after all, he had been the one who had wanted this more than anything and she had been nice enough to give it to him. He was the one who was really grateful right now, but saying that would just somehow ruin the mood.
"It's cold...," he mumbled then, finding it a bit amusing how he could say that while still being slightly sweaty. But it was really cold and while he would love to just lay like this and hug her... "Do...," he hesitantly started, hoping that she wouldn't take this the wrong way. Not that he had any idea of how it could be taken wrong but... well, one never knew. "Do you want to take a shower...?"
A shower? Yui weighed it up in her mind - stay here, freezing cold but comfortable, or go take a shower where they'd both be much warmer but she'd have to stand up... She felt a little shaky, like the exertion had taken its toll on her body to such an extent that she just didn't have the energy to be doing anything at all. Of course she knew that that was probably not the case at all, that she didn't know because she hadn't tried yet. And the idea of being warm and clean again was so very tempting.
"Mmhm...," she muttered in reply, though didn't move just yet. This was one of those moments, like when first waking up in the morning, when all she wanted to do was lay still for as long as possible because she was just -so- very comfortable.
Feeling just a little bit relieved then, Jin held on to Yui tighter and hummed in reply. So they were going to take a shower. That would be neat, he thought, it would be kind of nice to be able to stand with her like that. He wanted to hold her, really. He didn't want to let go and he didn't want to actually move and to him it seemed as if Yui was thinking the same thing right now. After all, if she really wanted to go she would move, wouldn't she?
"Ja...," he tried then, his smile growing slightly as he thought of that, hey, he and Yui had just had sex. Hadn't he been so exhausted like he was right now he would probably have laughed a little. Or maybe jumped up and down or something because he was just -so- ridiculously happy about this, that was pretty stupid though wasn't it?
It didn't take them too long before they actually managed to get out of bed though and move to the bathroom. It felt a bit -weird- to walk around in the apartment naked like this, but since that feeling of weirdness just lasted for about a minute or two it wasn't any more weird than he could deal with. Probably the same went for Yui. Well in the bathroom though, he hurried to turn on the water and check so that there were two towels ready for them when they were ready. To save himself some embarrassment he let Yui go in behind the drapery first and then quickly took off and threw away that little thing that apparently saved so many people from getting children unexpectedly. He didn't really know -why- but it was a bit embarrassing to do this. To get it on, to talk about having them and so on - he was cool with that but -this- part was just... Good thing Yui had agreed on going in first. It only took about ten seconds before Jin joined her though and once there was just a couple of centimeters between them, he turned so he could do what he loved to do the most (after sex that is), which was to wrap his arms around her upperbody and lower his head to let it rest against hers. He liked standing like this, she had probably noticed by now. For some reason it made -him- feel really... safe or something. That was a pathetic thing to think for a guy though, but really. He felt calm and at ease and like... if he had her then everything was fine. Not that that was wrong or anything.
Wasn't this strange though? From what Yui had heard, most guys just liked to roll over and fall asleep after something like that - it seemed logical what with them having to do all the work and all. If she was honest she hadn't expected Jin to do that at all; but now that he didn't, now that her expectation became a reality she wasn't quite sure what to make of it. Had she heard wrong, perhaps? Or... or maybe he was just special. Different to other guys. It sounded so lame even in her head, but she couldn't help liking it anyway.
It was really warm in here. Not burning hot like she'd felt before - if you asked her there was only so much of that one person could stand at any one time - just pleasantly warm. And he was there and she didn't have to worry about being too clingy because there wasn't much more clingy one could -get- than this and... wow. So perfect. Nobody could ask for more.
This was just like him, really. To find a girl and like her a lot and then immediately start thinking about things like, big steps and stuff. But it wasn't as if he could help it... It was just who he was. Impatient and felt as if he had to do things quickly. He was a busy sort of guy, or something, but even so pretty lazy when it came down to things. She was just twenty years old though. She was going to be twenty years old, she was young and while he didn't think of himself as -so- much older she was still younger and with that... It felt a bit mean to be thinking of these big things.
Like, what would it be like to actually be together with her for a while? How would it be to live with her? To spend as much time as possible with her? Would he ever consider to go so far as to ask her to stay by his side all the time? And if so, what would it be like to get a family with her? Yui would make a great mother, he was sure of that already but... These were such big things. Big important matters and it would kind of change your whole life. If you married, if you got a family you couldn't go out and have fun and date random guys anymore and if that would happen to Yui then Jin would have been the one to take that - take a part of her youth away from her, wouldn't he?
"Did...," the taller of the two whispered after a while, tightening his grip around her. He loved standing like this by the way. "Did you like it...?"
There was no way that Yui could keep the smile from her face then. Holding onto him more tightly, she hummed contentedly in reply - to say she'd liked it was an understatement. To be honest it just really... 'wow' was the only word she could think of for it. 'Wow' after all showed amazement and an inability to think of more words - if she tried to put any other, more descriptive words to it she knew that she'd fail miserably.
If she'd heard Jin's thoughts then... Apart from the obvious amazement that wow, he was really thinking about things like that - she would have pointed out that there was nothing in her mind that told her that dating 'random guys' would be any fun at all. In fact if there was anything she was -not- planning on doing, it was going around dating a bunch of random people. But she couldn't know that; it was almost sad really, since right now she had the most amazing feeling like the two of them couldn't possibly be apart for any reason. Even though her logic told her that this wasn't necessarily the case, she couldn't help but feel that since they'd done this, now they just -had- to be together forever.
Jin smiled a bit wider at that, almost feeling a bit proud. He had actually been a bit scared that he had done something wrong. Okay so it had been pretty obvious that Yui had liked it quite a lot but even so, maybe there had been something that made her not want to do it again. Lucky for him that that was not the case. Had you asked him yesterday he would have told you he had confidence in this and that he was sure that he'd make her enjoy it but now... Things were different. Since they had, you know, actually done it.
"Yokatta," he answered then and rocked the two of them slightly from side to side. Maybe they should wash their hair now or something. It probably would be a good idea, but... Before he knew what he was doing, Jin closed his eyes and bent down slightly to place a few kisses on her neck.
He really liked her though. He really, really, really liked her. He couldn't help but wanting to do things like this every now and then, he couldn't help but wanting to be close to her all the time. Since she was starring in -another- movie soon there wouldn't be much time for them to meet in awhile. Something told him his upcoming phonebill would be pretty big. And, more than likely, he would mail a bit more than he usually did - he didn't like mailing. He usually didn't write too much but when it was Yui he didn't mind it at all... didn't even mind adding a heart every now and then. It was almost a bit scary, what liking a girl did to you.
Why was he so perfect? Or rather, a better question to ask was how on earth had Yui managed to meet someone she liked -so- much, who not only liked her enough to have her as his girlfriend but was just so... amazing. So unbelievably perfect. After all, how many girls had gotten to like a guy this much only to find out that he was an alcoholic? Abusive? Ignorant? Just plain not their type at all? She felt sorry for them - of course she would have felt sorry for girls in a position like that had this not happened as well, but right now she felt kind of bad because she had it so very good. Even though it wasn't her fault it didn't always turn out that way.
Right now, though, this felt like the way things happened in movies and books and things like that. Maybe she was still riding on the incredible rush from just minutes ago but she felt really, really good about pretty much absolutely everything right now. So much that she actually giggled slightly when he kissed her again. If you'd asked her this morning whether she thought she'd be in -this- position by the end of the day, she wouldn't even have considered the possibility and yet... Wasn't it amazing how things could change in such a short time?
As he heard her giggle, Jin couldn't help bit grin a bit. That was just so cute though. She had the cutest -smile- ever, the most adorable laugh he had ever heard and her giggle? Don't get him started on that, it was beyond cute, really. It was... it was just -so- Yui. This, the way he felt, it was because they were in the first stage of their relationship wasn't it? People usually said that in the beginning of a relationship all you thought of was that person, the one you wanted to be with was that person, everything you did always had to do with that person... He didn't mind though, he quite liked this feeling.
"Suki yo," Jin mumbled then before placing a kiss on her cheek and again let his head rest against hers. He had never really had a hard time with saying what he felt when he felt it but it had -really- been a long time since he'd been allowed to say something like that... Now that he was? He most likely was going to overuse it quite a lot. Hopefully Yui wouldn't mind, something told him she wouldn't.
They called this the honeymoon period or something, didn't they? The excessive closeness, the strange feeling of wanting to be together 100% of the time - it had a name, which meant that most people (or at least a lot of them) experienced the same thing. That in reality it really wasn't very special at all. But to be honest Yui didn't care about that, she didn't care about any theories or what anyone else thought. To her it felt like something special, something amazing and thus nothing that anybody else thought about it mattered. After all, what made this any of their business anyway?
"Daisuki," she replied without a second thought on the subject. She wanted to add an 'always' in there, since right now it seemed insane to imagine herself without him - but being conscious of his own thoughts on the subject and really not wanting to scare him away if she could possibly help it, she kept it in her mind for the time being.
"You comfy?," Jin asked in a low voice as the two of them finally were back in the bedroom, in the bed, laying under the covers next to each other. Of course the sheets had been changed, which by the way had been fun to do. Probably that had been the first time -ever- that Jin had enjoyed changing his bed sheets. Maybe it was because he got to see Yui dressed in nothing but underwear and a shirt that was his and underwear. She had really nice legs. Or maybe, the reason for enjoying it had been because he had done just a couple mistakes and she laughed about it... She was really...
Jin moved slightly closer to Yui as he thought of it and put an arm around her waist to pull her a bit closer... not that it was really possible though.
"I'm really comfy." The world had to know, you realise.
"Mmhm," she muttered in reply, putting one hand on his chest partly for comfort reasons and partly for... well. Clingy reasons. But right now it was okay to be clingy, wasn't it? It wasn't as though the one doing -most- of the clinging was her after all. That was really nice by the way. It was nice to be held not only because she liked being close to him but because he made her feel as though nothing could get her. Like there could be an earthquake or a tornado and she'd be fine so long as she stayed here.
Yui didn't want to close her eyes. She didn't want to go to sleep because that would mean she wasn't aware that this was still happening. That was such a waste! And it was just silly to waste this, to waste their time together because it was -precious-. Why? Well, why not. If there was any time she was going to refer to as 'precious', this would probably be it. But she was getting so tired now... Wasn't it late though? Why hadn't she looked at the time recently? Hours could have flown by...
The older one smiled at that and hummed in a way that could only mean that he was pleased to hear that. This was the first time they were going to sleep together, he realised. That one time in the car didn't really count because it hadn't been like this. Now they were going to sleep together and -not- be surprised by it. Once they would wake up and they'd realise that they were still there and then they'd remember yesterday and it was just kind of awesome. Because of that reason Jin didn't mind going to sleep at all, he loved sleeping after all and why not do that together with someone you like as much? Exactly, absolutely no reason not to!
"Hey...," he whispered after a little while then, feeling the urge to ask this even though he was already 99.99% sure of what the answer would be. "Do you snore?" He wasn't -really- serious about that though, something that probably could be heard in his voice as he asked.
Yui blinked, her eyes widening slightly at being asked a question like that. Did she? Nobody had ever told her she did - which had to mean that she didn't, right? But then if people talked in their sleep then sometimes other people just shut up about it to save them the embarassment of finding something like that out... What if that was what had happened with her? What if she said something really stupid in her sleep and it put him right off her and... god there were so many ways to screw this up, weren't there?
"I... I don't think so..?," she attempted, frowning slightly as she was getting a bit worried about that now. A lot of things she could keep herself from doing, but if she was asleep at the time, how on earth was she supposed to stop it?
As he could hear the insecurity in her voice, Jin laughed slightly. It was just like her to be worried about something like that, wasn't it?
"I'm just joking," he thus answered and held on to her tighter as he closed his eyes. "I don't think that you do either," he continued then, "but even if you would it'd be okay~" Okay so he couldn't promise that but he wanted it to be okay at least? He didn't mind much when it came to Yui, the only thing he could think of right now was that he -would- mind if he'd see her with some other guy but other than that...
"I think I'm falling asleep now..."
"Mm," Yui muttered in reply, unable to deny just how heavy her eyelids were feeling and how her eyes were beginning to sting. She was so very comfortable here though, like it would be some awful crime to move anywhere because this position was... where she was supposed to be. Like getting out of bed at this point would be akin to throwing oneself into an active volcano.
"Sorry...," she added, her eyes sliding closed as her whole body relaxed, preparing to fall asleep. There was no way anyone could help that in this position - except that implied other people in this position, didn't it? No, no, definitely not. "If I do..."
Even though Jin was like -this- close to sleep, he couldn't help but chuckle slightly as he heard that. He wanted to not talk anymore, he really did, but even so he couldn't just stay silent as she said that.
"Nn," he hummed and shook his head slightly. "Dun apol'gize stupid, 'll still love you even if you do, y'know." No, he was not aware of what he was -actually- saying at this point. Probably a good thing really, otherwise he would probably have been embarrassed right now - something he was way too tired to be right now.
On a conscious level, Yui barely registered the use of the heavy word, so close was she to falling asleep at this point. What she did register was how curiously warm inside she got at hearing it. Recognising this as something that wasn't exactly completely normal behaviour in response to a mumbled sentence, she went over it in her mind again purely so that she wouldn't wake up confused about it - and wait a second, had he really actually said that? -That- word? Suddenly, despite being so tired Yui found her mind racing.
"Mm," she muttered, just to have said something in reply. What was she supposed to think about something like that? Could he possibly mean that? But he was tired, right? Maybe it was just easier to say, maybe he wasn't thinking straight, maybe it was because of what had happened today... So many 'maybe's, and yet even though her heart pounded in her chest she found herself unable to keep her eyes open anymore.
Maybe... even if he really had just said that because he was tired... it would be alright to pretend he'd meant it.