There's no reason to feel bad, Benji. You saw what Murphy said, you reacted. It's fine. I don't think Finn would be upset, so you shouldn't be either. I'm very glad you had Caroline with you, camp wouldn't be the same without you.
I'm not going to say there's never gonna come a time that you have to go outside the gate, but I really don't think it's something you need to worry about. We're well prepared and protected in here. And if we did have to go out there, if you did? I'm betting Caroline would have your back now just as she did before.