I don’t know what’s changed, but I feel clearer or something. I wouldn’t say that the veil has lifted, but it’s like I’m a step closer to understanding what’s going on. What’s really going on.
I’ve got no grounds for that, of course. It’s just a feeling.
I’ll have to sort out my questions before I go home. Figure out which ones are the most important to ask, and how I can make it look like I’m not asking them. Mum and Dad must have more pieces than whatever is handed out to us here.
I believe that the Ministry is lying. I believe that the Muggleborn threat is a cover for them not having the control over You Know Who that they would like to. Why the hell haven’t we heard anything at all about him? I’m more concerned about him than some bushy haired dentist’s daughter.
So I suppose that I understand the what but not the why? I don’t know. Things start running in circles after a while.
I also think that Jack might write for the Phoenix Press, at least that article refuting Percy Weasley perhaps I need to talk to Olive
Dark Arts. At first I liked it better because I was actually learning stuff, unlike Muggle Studies. Although I’m probably learning more there than what they think. But while I’d slice off the fingers of someone who attacks my home, I’d do it - situations like when Sully was attacked by the Wandless? I wouldn’t want to hurt any of them, not unless I really have to. What if I try to cast a shielding charm and I end up maiming someone? I’m becoming so used to doing these spells that something like that could slip out if I’ve only a split second to react.
And Sully. I can’t judge how much he actually believes of what he’s saying, or how much is just the frustration talking. I hope it’s just this once, because he’s not going to make things easy for himself here. We only have each other, and we’re being forced into that corner more and more these days. So we turn on each other very easily.
Time will probably tell with all of this, but I feel like we’re running out of it.
What was that even? I’m writing like I’m writing that bloody noire novel for real.