What was she then? Vedette watched him in silence. There was little she could tell him about where to go and what to do. She wanted to tell him to come with her, or to be with her, but that wasn't fair of her to ask or demand of him. She did not know where she was going or what she should be doing either. She hadn't had much of a purpose, save the nanny for Prince Ithacles. As if the Half Elf really needed it. Well, he did now and then, but that wasn't important now. What had she been doing with her life?
Had she ever had a purpose? Once she'd thought her purpose was to see the world. And then to climb the highest peaks instead of flying to them. To challenge the wind, and break the bounds which kept normal dragons hidden. It wasn't so much to live among humans, but to be one of them for a time. A decent challenge for a dragon, one that she was good at, or had been good at. But since the breaking, since every family member she could clearly remember or had ever known was dead. What was there?
Defeat, it had felt like defeat and the worst kind of loneliness. To be a solitary being in a world full of people. Poets wrote about it, bards sang about it, but to actually feel that alone. To feel like there was no one else in the world that understood you. Even Ithunvel, kind though he was, had not filled that void. Neither had Ithacles, or Lethe. None of the friends she'd encountered since the breaking quite filled the void. That surge of emotion which struck her upon seeing Koe.. well that explained it. He filled the void left by the breaking.
Because she loved him. Because he understood her.
But she could not ask him to stay here, could not tell him where to go.
She didn't even know what it was she meant to him, but she'd never questioned it till now, why should she question it now? Did it matter? It did, it mattered in some ways, and didn't in others.
"I cannot tell you where to go, or what to do, Koe. I really have no answers for you, as I have none for myself. I've been searching for something for years, and I'm not sure I'll ever know what it is, or if I'll find it."