Michaela Barnes (michaela_barnes) wrote in btvsal, @ 2011-02-03 02:24:00 |
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Current mood: | relieved |
Entry tags: | ben bale, kayla barnes, place: la |
Making a Decision
Who: Ben and Kayla
Where: Ben's mansion
When: Monday, January 31st
Since today was her day off, Kayla decided that it was time to see her boss and friend, Ben, to get his opinion and advice on a few things, which was why she called ahead to make sure that he was home before heading up his front doorstep, dressed in black jeans and a gray wife-beater and while she'd grown something of a Mohawk recently, she was too lazy to style it up, so it hung loosely to one side of her face, her usual black hair tipped with a dark purple hair-dye.
Today, Skylar was actually busy with getting the kids to a checkup, so Ben had given Helena the day off to go and enjoy herself. So he'd been working out a bit when Kayla rang the doorbell, and sprang up to get the door just dressed in black sweatpants, his deceptively muscular upper body exposed while he opened the door with a BIG grin. "Kayla! Now if THIS isn't a nice surprise... What's goin' on, gorgeous?"
"Hey," she replied, unable to help eying him up. What? He had a good body. Leave her alone. "I wanted to see you... get you opinion about something." She chuckled huskily and added: "...If this is a bad time... I can come back later?"
"Just working out a bit." Ben said with a shrug, grinning at her. "And its NEVER a bad time where you're concerned. C'mon in... tell me what's on your mind."
"The... same thing as last time we had a deep discussion," she admitted, following him inside. "Chloe and Gabriel and my COMPLETE lack of ability to chose one of them to BE with."
"Ok, ok. Look. This is the part where, to excuse my lack of tact, you need to shit or get off the pot." Well, at least he was blunt, hm? "You got two good people, both of which love you. At this point you need to pick one, hurt the other as little as possible, and move on. Before you take too damn long and hurt them BOTH. My other advice to you is to get naked. Right here. Because god you look good."
"God, but how do I even PICK? They're both so fabulously WONDERFUL," she admitted with a thoughtful scowl before laughing and rolling her eyes. "If you're working out, then you've gotta pin me DOWN first," she added challengingly.
"I'll take care of your worries first. Help you figure out who you NEED. Then I'll pin you down and have one last dance with you before you're officially a one-person girl." Aw. He was actually kind of sweet.
"Anyone ever tell you that you're a pure gentleman?" She teased lightly, poking her pierced tongue out at him, but she nodded nevertheless. "That's actually a good idea. Help?" She pleaded, pouting cutely. "Also, feel like getting a girl a beverage?"
Ben walked to the kitchen, quickly grabbing them each a beer, then walked back in, tossing one to her. "So here's the million-dollar question: yes, you love them both... But only ONE can be the one you can't live without. If you HAVE to give one up... Which is the one you literally feel sick to your stomach at the thought of living without? Be brutally honest, because ain't nobody here but me and you."
She caught the beer easily enough, uncapping it and taking a LONG gulp while he spoke, before mulling over his question, her lip sneering at her own immediate response, as if she hated herself for it. "Gabriel's... AMAZING, you have no idea. He just.... I can talk to him about ANYTHING, y'know? And my GOD he's so fucking good in bed." That was Kayla at her MOST vulgar, by the way, and even then, she blushed. "Chloe... makes me feel lighter somehow, like whatever shit I went through never changed her opinion about me." She whined and pouted. "And while she has EVERY right to sleep with whoever she wants I can't help it but feel JEALOUS about it."
"Let me ask you this: I get that you get along great with both. But: does one of them make you want to just throw everything away and hold them forever?" He asked, starting to get what she needed... but wanting her to realize it herself.
"Beeeeeennnnn...." She whined adorably, jutting her lip in a POUT. God, she could be whiny sometimes, huh? "I hate that I have to choose." She admitted. "And I *do* love them both." Which... she'd only ever admitted to him up until this point. "I know that... I'll always have Gabriel in some way, but... I don't want her to leave me..."
"Then there you go." He said, sighing. He actually DID like Gabriel. Envied the man's goodness, in a way. But it was obvious in some way what Kayla needed. "Just... Make me a promise. And tell NOBODY I said this. Let him down softly. He's a good man, and a better Watcher than I'll ever be. And...mind if I ask you a question I've been dying to know for months?"
"I will," she promised. "He deserves that much, at least." She just hoped that... after all of this, he'd stick by her... and if he couldn't, that he'd be happy training another girl. GOD, she hated herself right now. At Ben's question, she frowned curiously: "What's that?"
"Why COULDN'T you go back to Deanna? Girl was nuts for you, and face it: she ain't the sharpest tool in the shed, but DAMN she's hot in bed." Well hell, at least he was honest, right?
She ducked her head then and peeled at the label on her bottle: "I... still love Deanna," she admitted. AGAIN telling him something that she hadn't told ANYONE. Not even Gabriel. Or Chloe. "At … first I was worried that I'd physically BREAK her. … After that I convinced myself that... it wasn't fair to ask her back when I just wasn't right up here." She tapped her index finger to her temple. "...It wouldn't have been fair to try again just to... fuck it up." She sighed. "I was SO broken, Ben."
"If it matters, she's... finally recovering. Turns out someone actually fell in love with her, and wants to protect and cherish her." He smiled, before turning it into a smirk. "Eve, of all people. Is that a ridiculously hot couple or what?"
"...It really is," she chuckled weakly. "If she's happy, then that's all I can hope for her, y'know?" She wiped under her eyes. "Sometimes I wish things had turned out differently... but maybe things were meant to turn out this way. Who knows?"
"Plus... Van Warren? Seriously?" He smirked, shaking his head. "You don't get much hotter than that, girl." He looked her over, laughing. "Now, you gonna get naked and hope we can at least last long enough for Skylar to get home and join us?"
"Like I said, dude," Kayla replied with a laugh, finally feeling lighter in her SOUL than she had in a LONG time. "You've gotta try to pin me DOWN first..."