Iris Dickinson (Formerly Iris Phillips McConnell) (telekeneticspaz) wrote in btvsal, @ 2011-01-15 21:26:00 |
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Current location: | Iris's Home |
Current mood: | calm |
Entry tags: | iris dickinson-lewis, patience kowalski, place: la |
Trying to Make Amends
Who: Iris and Patience
Where: Iris' place
When: Saturday, January 15
If there was anyone right now that deserved an apology for all the things that she'd done, it was Iris. Patience's' best friend didn't deserve what had happened to her... if they were still friends, come to think of it. Which was why the redhead was currently on Iris' front doorstep, dressed down from her usual work attire and... in a surprisingly lovely white babydoll dress with her hair tied back in a bun. In retrospect, she should have called first, but then... maybe Iris wouldn't see her. Funny that.
Iris could be a very forgiving person...some of the time. Hell, she had forgiven Pat but held a grudge against Skylar for quite a while, after all. When she opened the door and saw that it was Patience, she had half a mind to slam it in her face, but decided to wait a sec on that. "This had better involve groveling," she pointed out simply to Patience.
"And ass kissing... if only you were so inclined," Patience joked weakly, lowering her head like a kicked puppy. "I fucked up. I know that it's an epic fucking understatement, but I did and I'm so beyond fucking SORRY that I hurt you the way that I did."
"You mean the physical hurt or the mental and emotional stuff?" Iris asked. "I can't believe you would think that I of all bloody people would do such a thing to you. Why would you even listen to dumb ass rumors like that?" Just the same, she stepped back to let her come in if she wanted.
Patience took in a breath and let it out slowly before stepping inside, holding her hands together in front of her. "Both," she clarified. "...And I know that I shouldn't have believed it, but something in me reacted strongly to it... obviously."
"Probably the devil in you," Iris said. It was mostly meant as a joke, but she had a point all the same. "Maybe some anger management classes are in order?"
"I'm workin' on it," Patience assured her. "Fuck... I haven't flipped out since. I'm not lying, babe. I PROMISE I won't fuck up again."
"You better not. Your baby deserves better than that," Iris pointed out. "Fine. So, are you and Pat getting back together, or is that done?" Might as well know for her other friend's sake.
"We're not together anymore," Patience confirmed with a sigh. She rubbed a finger across a closed eyelid and then sat down on the couch, drawing one thigh to her chest. "Things changed too much too fast and when I came back... as much as I wanted things to be the same as before... it really wasn't."
Iris nodded. "So I got attacked and you aren't even together anymore. Ok..." File that information away for now. "Where are you staying then? Have you seen Cash at all?"
Patience nibbled her lip between her teeth at Iris' first statement, but wasn't really sure how to voice her concern there, and moved on for now... "I have an apartment... and no. Not yet. I don't want to push Pat right now."
"As much as I care for Pat, you need to see your child soon, as he does you," Iris pointed out. "If him and Skylar could work something out, I'm sure you can." She sighed. "I'm willing to work on forgiving you, Patience, but you scared the hell out of me. I'm terrified something could happen again. What could set you off next time?"
"I'm sure that we'll work something out... Pat has a wonderful way of thinking of his kids first. He'll do the right thing... and so will I." Patience murmured. "As for things setting me off... I'm not really sure. If someone hurt Cash, maybe... but... I worry that hurting you was my last act of love." Which spoke on levels that worried her more than she was willing to say at the moment.
"Your last act of love?" Iris asked. "Ok, what the heck does that mean?" It was as clear as mud to her.
Patience sighed. "I worry that if I see Cash... I won't love him like a mother should. If I date someone, I won't love them like they deserve." She thought of Hillary briefly. "I mean, how can I fall out of love with PAT? He's just..." She sighed again. "Maybe I AM crazy..."
"You can't live your life like that, Patience," Iris pointed out. "Maybe you and Pat weren't quite meant to be. Doesn't mean you'll never love again, whether it be someone you date or your son."
"If you say so... I can't help it but fucking think it, though," Patience muttered, setting her hand under her chin thoughtfully. "So... yeah. Gonna work on earning your trust again. I promise. And anything you need or wanna talk about, I'm here, okay?"
"I'll keep that in mind," Iris said. She wasn't feeling totally trusting yet or anything, but she was going to try.