Lilly Maymin (lilly_maymin) wrote in btvsal, @ 2010-11-20 22:38:00 |
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Current location: | Avarice |
Current mood: | calm |
Entry tags: | lilly maymin, paige bennett, place: la |
Singing the Blues
Who: Lilly and Paige
Where: Avarice
When: Friday Night, 11/19
Considering it was open mic night at Avarice, Paige had decided to take a night to just get onstage and play her heart out, get out a little bit of what she'd been feeling since Patience had left town. She'd written several songs already about all the emotions it had stirred within her. One was perfect to use with her pet project, Intangible Now... another was being given to Ginny for Coma White to use. But this one... was too personal for a real project. So she sat on a stool on the stage at Avarice, clad in black leather shorts, knee-high boots, and a clingy red tank top, raven hair tied into a long ponytail as she closed her eyes, and strummed as she sang.
"My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning, I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive
I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive
I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand, I give it to you
Now you owe me, all I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed"
Lilly had to admit, that she wasn't sure what to think of all of this. Paige was loosing her freaking mind over Patience. She had come out to Avarice just to hang and have a few drinks and try to relax a little bit, and then walked in on Paige singing her heart out on stage, presumably about Patience. That song was INTENSE. She sat down at a table with a beer and watched as Paige performed.
Oddly enough... what Paige was feeling wasn't what people thought. Everyone seemed to think she was feeling what someone would feel if their wife or girlfriend left... yet Paige more had the feeling of her sister, friend, student, and child leaving. ALL AT ONCE. So... she was devastated. When she finished the song, she spotted Lilly and... for the first time all day, SMILED. She hopped off the stage with a little jiggle (which made every guy there sigh happily), and walked over, hugging the girl tightly, without a word.
Which wouldn't suck for Lilly to hear, honestly. Still, when Paige smiled at her, Lilly couldn't help but smile back and hug her back when she came over. "I wish you'd told me that you were going to be here tonight," she said.
"Just didn't wanna burden you with my angst any more. I love your Jewish ass too much to keep doing that to you." She smirked, giving Lilly a more affectionate little squeeze than she usually gave ANYONE in public.
Lilly threaded her fingers through Paige's as the two sat down at the table again. "I'm your girlfriend. That's part of what the deal of a relationship, you know?"
"At least I'm calm enough to talk about it now. I... want to apologize to Dar for scaring the shit outta her... but I felt like I should talk to you FIRST. You deserve it. Mostly for sticking by my crazy ass." Paige smirked, sort of admitting how neurotic she was being.
"Like I'd want anyone else after being with you," Lilly pointed out playfully. "I'm sure Darlene will be happy to hear that, though. I think she's sick of sleeping on Jim and Dave's sofa now." Lilly had to listen to a two hour bitch fest last night over the phone over it. Lovely.
"Look. I know how this seems. And you deserve to hear it first." She took a deep breath, and then let it all out. "You're the ONLY person I'm in love with, Lil. Patience... ok. Imagine having a twin sister. And a best girlfriend. And a kid. And a prized student. And now imagine losing all of them on the same day. What would that do to you?"
"Completely and utterly fuck me up for a while," Lilly said with, let's be honest, a sigh of relief. "I love you, Paige, but I have to admit that I'm a little relieved to hear that you aren't like, totally in love in Patience like you love me."
"I don't hold shit back, Lil. You know that. Was I stupidly attracted to Patience? God yes. I'd STILL hit that shit like there was no tomorrow. But YOU are the one and only person I'm in love with. Seriously. It's just... she and I had a bond. Forged when i saved her. And it... makes it REALLY hard on me for her to be gone. It's like I'm missing a limb now or something."
Lilly nodded. "I knew it had something to do with the blood sharing thing, I just didn't quite know like, exactly how it worked or what it made you two guys feel." Lilly felt like she was babbling like a retard. Still, might as well say everything that she was feeling.
"It's... like there's a part of her that's now a part of ME. If that makes ANY fucking sense at all. Blood's a powerful thing, Lil... especially for things like me." Yeah... Paige still thought of herself as a 'thing'.
"You're not a goddamn 'thing,' Paige," Lilly pointed out. "You're a person. Do you think I would be dating a 'thing'?" OK, Lilly was making a joke, but she really didn't think of Paige as a 'thing.'
"Thanks, babe. You always know how to say what I need to hear. Just..." This was one of the few times Paige was feeling vulnerable enough to actually emote in public. "Don't leave me, ok? Like... ever."
"I took you back after you came back from the dead after being a vampire and trying to kill me, Paige," Lilly pointed out. "Do you think I'd EVER leave you after taking you back after that?" OK, a little convoluted, but still...
"Ok, so... a valid point. But I got major abandonment issues, ok? I never even told YOU how bad it fucked me up when my dad left my mom, or when any of my myriad of boyfriends left me..." She thought about it then, her next words coming out far more hilariously than she intended. "Although that MIGHT have been because I'm sort of an epic bitch. Possibly."
"Yes, I know all about your issues, Paige. I DID kind of grow up with you." Frankly, if anyone knew everything about Paige, it was going to be Lilly. "I figured it out years ago. That's why, barring the 'trying to kill me' thing, I've always been by your side, even when you went epic bitch on Ginny's then girlfriend."
"Yeah... that shit I said to Wilson was bad even by MY standards. Ah well." Paige rolled her eyes with a snort. "At least we're kinda pals now. And she's with YOUR jailbait ex, which I find ALL kinds of hilarious."
"Good for you. And while she's with my ex, I highly doubt they're doing anything but some kissing," Lilly said with a smirk. "You and me, though...we can do LOTS more than that."
"Well, Christ, Maymin... we ARE a couple of epically sexy bitches... can't go lettin' that shit go to waste, you know?" Sigh. No. Paige didn't grow up in a trailer park or anything. Really.
"Then let's not let it go to waste," Lilly said, still smirking at him. She cast a glance toward the women's bathroom. "I'm sure we can figure out some interesting positions in there."
"Well I'll be damned." Paige cackled, suddenly back in a great mood. "I've finally corrupted Daddy's Little Princess..."
"I think you did that a long time ago," Lilly said, giving Paige a tug in the direction of the bathroom.