Lilly Maymin (lilly_maymin) wrote in btvsal, @ 2010-11-02 00:01:00 |
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Current mood: | pissed off |
Paige is on the Warpath
Who: Lilly and Paige
Where: Paige and Darlene's Apartment
When: Oct. 29th, Evening
After getting what sounded like a freaked call from Paige's roommate, which contained more uses of the work 'fuck' that Lilly thought possible, she headed over to Paige's place. She could hear a commotion coming from the back where Paige's room was. Darlene fled by her through the door, saying something about 'being at Dave's,'before Lilly was even able to step inside. "Paige!" she called out, shutting the door behind Darlene. "Am I OK to come back there? Or have you already set something on fire?"
"MOTHERFUCKER!" Came the loud shout from Paige's bedroom, along with a loud, violent crash, and what sounded like a combination of wood splintering and glass shattering.
"Well, glad there's no fire, at least," she said with a roll of her eyes. Lilly headed back to the bedroom and pushed the door open, noticing that she was pushing against what she was sure was once a dresser. "You know what would be good? Prozac."
"This ain't a fuckin' joke, Lil!" Paige looked like she had absolute MURDER in her eyes, as she threw a wild punch at the wall next to her... taking out a huge chunk of it. "I'm tired of this! All of it! Every time I let someone in, every time I let myself fucking TRUST someone, or worse, CARE about someone..." This was, sadly, why Paige was the bitchy thing she was. Girl had had abandonment issues since childhood, and Lilly was truthfully the only person who hadn't ever (well, for very long anyway) given up on Paige or used her and thrown her away.
Lilly sat down on what remained of the bed (mostly just a mattress), looking at Paige for a minute. "Guess I'm chopped liver then, huh?" Lilly asked her. "Look, you know I joke in defense. Figured it was why you loved me." She shook her head. "Guess this is about Patience then, huh?"
"She's fucking ALIVE because of me, Lil! I let her in! I let her be part of my life! Hell... I admitted to you that in some stupid, weird way I can't explain, I *loved* her! And she just fucking left without even giving me so much as a goodbye? DAMN IT!" Paige lashed out again, tears streaming down her cheeks as she grabbed her television and hurled it against the wall, where it shattered and joined the remains of her bookshelf, her dresser, her mirror and her cabinet.
Finally, Lilly stood back up and walked over to Paige, grabbing her by the shoulders and turning her towards herself. "I'm sorry she fucked off on you, even though you shared...something that apparently even *I* can't share with you." Not without some really good reason, anyway. "I don't know why she didn't even give you a dear john letter or anything. I really don't. I wish I had something comforting to say, like she'll be back or some shit, but I'm not sure what I can say that will make you feel better."
"You'll leave me eventually too." She said, a tremble rippling through her body that landed somewhere between fear and anger. "Everyone does. My dad, everyone I've tried to date, every friend I've ever had."
Lilly took Paige's face in her hands and turned it toward her. "I'm never going to leave you, Paige," she said. "The only way you ran me off once was turning into a vampire and threatening to kill me. Fuck, I broke up with someone else to be with you, alright? I'm NEVER leaving you."
"I've been in love with you since we were KIDS, Maymin... and all I can think is, what if you change your mind? Do you realize that, demon or not, it would literally KILL ME now if you ever left me like this?" Paige was unwittingly making it obvious now what the real issue was here: she was afraid of her own weaknesses... of her own remaining humanity. "I... I couldn't take it... I already lost Patience... I don't wanna lose you too..."
"Like I haven't been in love with you for that long," Lilly pointed out. "You're how I figured out I was GAY, Paige." Might as well put it bluntly. "I will NEVER change my mind about you, OK? You've just got to trust me on that one. I know, part of the problem, sure, but I'm serious here."
Paige looked at her for a moment, as if trying to control herself. "Lil... you know what I am now. The strength and aggression I have inside me now. And I love you. I don't wanna hurt you. And I believe you. I really do. But right now... I'm a ball of raging hormones. And if you don't leave right now, this is going to result in rough, angry, possibly PAINFUL sex."
Lilly shook her head. "I'm not going anywhere," she said to Paige. "So, do with me what you must. I can take it." OK, so her tone was joking when she said that, but she did mean it. She really wasn't going anywhere.
Oh dear. Poor Lilly. This was only going to result in a LOT of bruising the next day...