Buffy Summers (buffy_da_slayer) wrote in btvsal, @ 2010-02-17 18:47:00 |
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Don't Leave Me
Who: Buffy and Kevin
Where: Van Warren House
When: Saturday, Feb. 13
Buffy walked inside of the Van Warren house after she was let in. It had been two days since the funeral, and one day since Meredith Delany dropped by her window at three in the morning (even though Buffy was a Slayer, she had been sleeping at the time) to deliver some news for her to tell Kevin, since she sort of figured Kevin might not want to see *any* vampire right now, even a souled one like her. So, news in her mind, for what it was worth, Buffy came over. She had been planning on coming over, anyway, but this had just made it a little more urgent. She started looking around the house for Kevin, not sure where he would be at.
Kevin wasn't exactly hiding... he was simply sitting in the family's recording studio, sitting in what used to be Lucy's favorite chair. He just sat there, quietly, staring at the guitar she'd been using to record the demo they'd been working on.
"Kevin, you can't keep sitting around alone like this," Buffy said to him, coming into the room after searching for him. "This isn't what Lucy would want, for you to be cutting yourself off from everyone like this."
"I... I'm not... trying to..." He said quietly, almost entirely unable to meet her eyes. "Buffy.... she's... she's gone. I want you, just for a minute, to imagine Dawn not only being killed... but waking up and finding yourself tied to her corpse."
"I can't even imagine what you're going through," Buffy told him. "I don't know how I'd react if that happened to me. I just...please don't turn away from me, Kevin. Don't push me out."
"I'd never shut you out, Buffy...." He turned to look at her, mortified that he even thought she would think that. "No... Buffy... you and Chloe are all I have left..."
"I'm sorry," Buffy said, swallowing a lump in her throat. She didn't want to cry right now. She really didn't. She had already done enough, hadn't she? "Ash quit the Council. He's shut everyone out and won't talk to me anymore. I don't want to see you do the same think, Kevin."
"Ash..." He closed his eyes... he didn't want to say this, not to Buffy... but he had to tell SOMEONE. "I blame him. I don't want to... but I know Lucy only stayed here after I got better because she loved him. If he hadn't.... hadn't gotten back together with her, she'd be out in San Diego right now."
"I think he blames himself, too," Buffy told him. "I think that's part of the reason why that he's doing this, the shutting people out thing." She sighed, looking away for a moment. "Placing blame isn't going to do anything, though. Ash can blame himself and you can blame Ash all you want to, but it won't help right now. Lucy wouldn't want us pushing each other away and fighting."
"I know she wouldn't." He gave a sad smile there, closing his eyes. "She never got to tell you... but she liked you, you know. Even though you guys had it out over Ash.... she was happy we were together. She felt bad that you two got off to such a bad start."
Buffy sighed. She had wanted to talk to Lucy over and over again so that they could smooth things out between them, but had never had the chance. "She was a very sweet girl, Kevin," she said to him. "I wish I had gotten the chance to talk with her. I think we could have gotten along well, you know?"
"You would have. Did you know that when she and Ash got back together, she hated herself for days because she knew you were hurting? She loved Ash so much... but she hated knowing she hurt anyone. She hated knowing anyone was hurting in general." He sighed, finally wrapping his arms around the petite blonde, sniffling as he laid his head on her shoulder.
She wrapped her arms back around him as well. She was just glad that he was talking right now, with all the silence that had been going on. "I actually didn't hurt for that long. I think it hurt more than Ash didn't say something sooner to me than anything else. I hope she realizes that now."
"I know she does." Thank GOD Ash removed the more... horriffic part of Lucy's death from his memory, or Kevin would not be this calm right now. He'd likely be in a rubber room. "Buffy? .....please never leave me?"
She nodded. "I will do everything in my power not to leave you, Kevin. Can you promise me the same?" She didn't want to think of what would happen if Kevin died on her.
"Everything in my power." He promised. "She was gonna be famous, Buffy... I know it. She was SO talented..."
"I know she was, Kevin," Buffy said to him. "She had the ability to be huge."
"And I'm gonna carry on. I'm gonna do what I know she wanted us to do." He pledged, nodding. "Might... might take me a while, you know? To feel... able... but I'm gonna do it. For her."
"Good," Buffy said to him. "I'm glad, and I'm sure that she's glad as well." She could only hope that Lucy could be glad for them right now, anyway.