Fizz (rainbow_prophet) wrote in britannia_ny, @ 2009-10-08 03:40:00 |
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Current mood: | complicated |
Current music: | Fiona Apple - Red Red Red |
There's a solace a bit for submitting to the fitfully cryptically true (Open)
The fight meeting argument conversation with Jim had not gone well – Enfys would have been deluding herself more than even Merlin was capable of to claim as much, even if she should have been congratulating herself in equal measure at orchestrating the latter half of the conversation quite as beautifully as she had done – and she'd spent the next few days 'licking her wounds' (read: generally not doing much to counter Jim's point about her acting like a sulky high-schooler, which had her mother rejoicing that she'd finally hit a normal teenage stage instead of hiding in her room with her computer and her books, but really didn't do much for her productivity). But there was only so long one could hope to hide from the world; she'd learnt that in her other life when it came to hiding with and / or in Nimue, and in this one it stood to reason the same would be true of hiding from her... him... whatever.
Christ, this was complicated.
And she was getting seriously bored of that line of thought, thanks. Maybe it would help to just treat everything as complicated. Then it would be a pleasant surprise if something turned out to be refreshingly simple, rather than a continual cycle of disappointment when the simple turned out to be... yeah. That word.
Ken's wall, then; time to go back to basics and cling to what she knew, to focus back on Arthur and only Arthur and ignore all the other distractions, because however much she wanted it to make sense that Nathan should be standing next to her... for all her cod-logic about feeling incomplete without him, it was still the distraction it had always been.
So she was sat in her usual perch, her laptop out leeching broadband from god only knew where, her thermos of coffee on the wall next to her, as if nothing had changed since the first time she stumbled upon the mysterious stranger whose kingdom she now found herself struggling to establish.