Clara Fleet (gentlelight) wrote in britannia_ny, @ 2009-08-29 14:24:00 |
|
|||
Entry tags: | clara fleet, lexi lane |
looking for Lexi (& open to anyone else up too early)
In her dream, Clara (though not Clara) stands as still as if she's rooted to the ground. There are people all around her, but that seems unimportant. At the start of the dream, she is confident; it doesn't matter that she cannot move, because why would she ever want or need to? But before long, the people begin to move in closer and closer and there is chaos and shouting, and someone is bearing down on her, but she cannot move, cannot move-- and when she wakes, she is shaking all over and sobbing, her face buried in her pillow, and the only clear thought she can register is that she wants to see Lexi. She knows that seeing her will make it better, that even if they don't (and she hopes they don't) talk about the dream, Lexi's mere presence will make her feel calm and secure. Clara can't tell if the impulse is Gareth's or her own, and as she pulls on a pair of jeans and a shirt, still in a half-asleep blur between herself and him, she decides she doesn't care.
Despite having a room on the first floor, despite having a mother who set, in Clara's opinion, a ridiculously early curfew, despite being a teenager, she has never sneaked out through her window before. She's surprised at how easy it is. The sky is the warm gray that comes just before dawn and the air is chilly, and once she's across the lawn she realizes she forgot to put on shoes. She presses on, and it's only when she gets close to the lake that any kind of practical considerations enter her mind. Why would Lexi be up this early? Bakers do get up early. But why would she be in her shop? What if she doesn't want to see Clara?
With an uncharacteristic lack of worry, she answers her own questions silently as she starts for the door of the bakery: if Lexi doesn't want to see her, she'll tell her to go. If Lexi isn't there yet, she'll wait.