Stevie Wyrzykowski (stevia) wrote in brightstar, @ 2019-04-30 00:15:00 |
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We’re not fully human, Stevie.
A mermaid. No, a naiad. It’s different because it’s about freshwater. And because it’s real.
There’s going to be testing. The hospitals, getting blood drawn, all of that – it’s no big deal. I can handle the logistics and the poking and the prodding. No, the thing that makes it hard is… it’s not the kind of thing you want strangers to know about you, right?
But they’re specialists, and it’s their job. They’ll be professional. But maybe that almost makes it worse. They see this all the time, and they don’t care that it’s happening to you. You’re not special, even if your whole world is coming apart… Isn't it?
It doesn’t have to change anything. I want that to be true. I’m still Stevie, and Tony’s still Tony and Nat’s still Nat. But it’s not… it can’t be the same. Because we’re different.
There was a list, from Tony. Well, from the specialists. Something about… wanting to be near water. Is that why I came back to Brightstar? Is that why I went to school in Alta California? I guess I’ve never really lived away from water. But is the ocean the same, if we’re half-naiad? It’s saltwater…
What else was on the list? Sex drive… that's not really… But protectiveness – that sounds a little more like me. Maybe?
I always thought I wanted to know more about our mother, to find out who she was. I wanted to find her.
But instead we found this.
I think I wish I didn’t know at all.